Full space What is resembles darkness before it, burst apart into a space full of stars is as if what is awakens then by its own light It's daytime, life twitters lustily in leafy trees always waving they whisper in our ears what is as if what is wants to hear itself When everything blindingly contracts again star by star losing its light stiffens, stiffens consciousness

Poem 54
Train Leeuwarden-Amsterdam, 2006-12-03
Keyword: Universe 

The sun is setting,
the light leaves the walls, I see --
their weight dissolving.
De zon gaat onder,	Sonnenuntergang,
het licht verlaat de muren --	das Licht verlässt die Wände --
Hun gewicht lost op.	Ihr Gewicht verfliegt.

Poem H0051
Amsterdam, 2011-12-02
Keyword: Illusions: perception 

The girl is staring,
thinking hard of what she thinks --
she really doesn't know.
Het kind staart en denkt	Das Kind starrt und denkt
hard na over wat het denkt --	darüber nach, was es denkt --
echt niet te weten.	gar nicht zu wissen.

Poem H0060
Amsterdam, 2011-12-09
Keyword: Thinking (fret) 

In the train I rush
past the railroad crossing bell --
past a spacetime warp.
In de trein snel ik	Im Zug eile ich
voorbij de overwegbel --	vorbei dem Bahn-Läutewerk --
De ruimtetijd kromt.	Die Raumzeit krümmt sich.

Poem H0156
Amsterdam, 2012-01-21
Doppler effect
Keyword: Time 

The silverfish slips
away after exploring --
the floor, which is cleaned.
Het zilvervisje	Das Silberfischchen
verkent de vloer en glipt weg:	rutscht vom Boden weg, der ist --
ik heb schoongemaakt.	zu sauber gemacht.

Poem H0166
Amsterdam, 2012-01-23
Keyword: Life: environment 

Making water, and
air, of fire and earth, that's all --
It's the formula.
Uit vuur en aarde	Feuer und Erde
water en lucht maken, dat --	zu Wasser und Luft machen --
is de formule.	das ist die Formel.

Poem H0259
Amsterdam, 2012-04-13
Abiogenesis of life
Keyword: Earth: mother 

The vase with flowers,
which I just put outside, look:
full of butterflies.
De vaas met bloemen,	Schnittblume, draußen
die ik buiten heb gezet:	hingestellt, ziehen sofort --
meteen vol vlinders.	Schmetterlinge an.

Poem H0262
Amsterdam, 2012-04-18
Keywords: Nature: flowers, Flying: butterfly / moth 

The tickling fragrance
of mowed grass: at last the spring --
has begun for real.
Geur van gemaaid gras:	Frisch gemähtes Gras:
eindelijk is het voorjaar --	endlich der Frühling, jetzt erst --
nu echt begonnen.	recht angefangen.

Poem H0276
Amsterdam, 2012-05-02
Keywords: Nature: garden, park, Spring 

Bell strokes vibrate
over the canal, you feel --
time's elusiveness.
Klokslagen trillen	Die Glockenschläge
over de gracht, maken tijd --	vibrieren, machen die Zeit --
voelbaar ongrijpbaar.	tastbar ungreifbar.

Poem H0302
Train Terborg-Amsterdam, 2012-06-30
Keyword: Time: passing 

From the rain clouds to
the sea the water flows through --
the green foliage.
Van regenwolken	Von Regenwolken
naar de zee stroomt het water --	bis zum Meer fließt das Wasser --
door het groene blad.	durch das grüne Blatt.

Poem H0319
Amsterdam, 2012-07-18
Keyword: Lifestream (motion) 

At noon in the church,
my breath follows the organ --
air in and air out.
Middags in de kerk, 's	In der Kapelle
adem ik met het orgel --	atme ich mit der Orgel --
lucht in en lucht uit.	Luft rein und Luft raus.

Poem H0414
Amsterdam, 2013-02-22
Chapel of the Canisius College, Nijmegen 1964-1970
Keyword: Meditation 
Dedicated to: Johan A 

A squeaky concert
of young under the stork's nest:
sparrows and starlings.
Piepende jongen	Quietschender Jungen,
onder het ooievaarsnest:	auch unter dem Storchennest:
mussen en spreeuwen.	Spatzen und Stare.

Poem H0459
Train Assen-Amsterdam, 2013-06-07
Small nests at the bottom of the stork's nest
Keyword: Together: community 

As a baby, I
had a lot of fun falling --
into daddy's hands.
Als baby viel ik	Viel Spaß machte es
met veel plezier, keer op keer --	mir als Baby, zu fallen --
in papa's handen.	in Papas Händen.

Poem H0561
Amsterdam, 2013-08-21
Keywords: Surrender, Pleasure 
Dedicated to: Madelief dK 

I sigh with worries
and keep thinking about them:
Have I thought them up?
Ik zucht van zorgen	Ich habe Sorgen
en denk aan niets anders meer:	und denke ständig daran:
Heb ik ze bedacht?	Hab ich sie erdacht?

Poem S0113
Amsterdam, 2014-01-12
Keyword: Thinking (fret) 

Low tide, the morning
mist surrounding my senses:
circle of silence.
Het is eb, ochtend-	Ebbe, der Morgen-
mist rondom mijn zintuigen --	nebel um meine Sinne --
een cirkel stilte.	ein Kreis der Stille.

Poem H1046
Zandvoort aan Zee, 2014-11-06
Keyword: Silence 

My scars lace me up,
though my skin becomes tighter --
I become looser.
Littekens snoeren	Narben schnüren mich
mij in, mijn huid wordt strakker --	ein, meine Haut wird straffer --
en ik word losser.	und ich lockerer.

Poem H1084
Amsterdam, 2014-12-05
Keyword: Harmony: relaxation 

Hyperhole Gathered in The The ETERNAL ultimate Hyperhole: the mortal remains spaceless abreast The ALL-IN-ONE the souls as resurrected bodies spiritually close around it a firmament The radiant SOMETHING of the inconceivable The full NOTHING, stardust without mass, chips of every event and we: timeless shades in the hyper-hereafter of our existence, our illusions of the physical life we undoubtedly lived in the time that necessarily is because it is not in the darkness which shines in the light and doesn't know itself, but man and animal every atom, is its witness unable to comprehend It

Poem 906
Amsterdam, 2016-12-21
Keyword: Universe 

Giantess As a child I crawled invisibly away in the lower house under the veranda to see the rats potter among woodlice I felt big and strong I pressed my lips together against the little weak creepy cushions and let their hard tails whip my Gulliver body I liked being their Atlas under the adult world upon my shoulders which I separated from the earth to keep it as it is

Poem 907
Amsterdam, 2016-12-21
Keyword: Fantasy: playing 

Antiall With arms and legs I write courses of thoughts blood warm on the edge of the anti-all five dimensional loops ornamental curls around the poles the cores of my mass the things and the people their daily action of binding, colliding and releasing encircling and intertwining in all and antiall It's all a dream of mine, which is of nobody a life that shortly exists for real and then forever

Poem 1010
Amsterdam, 2017-02-13
Keyword: Universe 

The picture With wide arms I listen With hands full of green ears Polyphonic whispers of fluff Fine traces of sound on the bench A woman and her daughter look around, the girl stares and says with wobbling legs I'll be a mum just like you with a daddy and a child who thinks this is the most beautiful place of all, the whole world, the universe * The girl plays with a ball pulls a flake of my bark asks: is your name scratched in it? What is he old, isn't he, triple thick I think and those lumps, would he be sick? Her mother laughs and takes the picture she wished to have had of herself: the girl, and I incognito not as wise, not as full high and wide of past as I am now and smaller than what I know of all the people who caressed me of all the wishes they shared with me

Poem 1046
Amsterdam, 2017-02-20
Keywords: Lifestream (go by), Old age: watching 

The gates There is a fantastic gate somewhere in the golden middle a gateway to the good life There are more, and more beautiful to eternity, paradise and hell higher worlds than the earth given only to believers not obtained, not built together with strangers like that one gate of stories of what it can be like on earth for people of good will Whoever passes the fantastic gate finds another one, and another one

Poem 1050
Amsterdam, 2017-02-20
Keyword: Ethics: conscience 

The mountain The mountain stands imperturbable in the sun, being, being Receiving clouds, and hail, snow their bubbling and whirling going away at its feet, the children's rush and the pubertal noise of water playing itself hot in an embedded adventure And I am standing on top of the mountain, being, being Receiving the sun, experiences and night thoughts, growing old Everything melts, nothing in my hands nothing in my open arms

Poem 1051
Amsterdam, 2017-02-20
Keyword: Time: temporality 

Picked up luck My perspective between the rusty leaves is a dream house on the edge of the forest picked up on the way, in the fall Rich colours in the sun caress the wooden skin flakes of Mother Earth and I am passing by just a moment a guest

Poem 1054
Amsterdam, 2017-02-21
After a photo by Jan Keijzer
Keyword: Dream(s) 
Dedicated to: Jan K 

Everything is Everything is love no a moment everything is just a moment tasta-visi-heara-smellable for some moutheye earnoses and even less tangible no everything ís tangible interconnected just feel with the nameless sixth just feel if you dare not to think about it it is inconceivable it is all

Poem 1058
Amsterdam, 2017-02-21
Keyword: Senses 

I want more I want to go there or see a movie about it: the steppes the jungle, the Himalayas I want to shine my light in trenches, I want to know everything, made manageable so that the whole world becomes mine and I become a true citizen of the world, no I want more, be a cosmo citizen among spirits, angels and gods exist forever, I want to experience space adventures, but near home, because I already am so tiny a minor matter, a speck on mountain or sea, interchangeable in the crowd I don't want to relativise away my efforts, not to be completely invisible in universe and time

Poem 1068
Amsterdam, 2017-02-23
Keyword: Identity: experiences 

Relay race As long as we can we'll walk in circles together the youngest in the outer lane acquire meters and learn a lot are handed more and more batons stories where we are heading a finish line behind which no one needs to run anymore hand in hand we will walk on we will live in peace we will all be winners no relay race anymore the youngest in the outer lane grandma's on the inside bend close to the black hole

Poem 1072
Amsterdam, 2017-02-23
Keyword: Mankind 

No time Sometimes I dream away to a better world without fuss Then I focus my mind on a piece of true reality for which I don't have an eye other times I unfold my life open fom the divided attention of time, that sense of energy leaking away to this and that, this one and the other right now and ever later out of the nets of my memories my self-made images that only suffice for a moment to measure time No atomic clock can help me to do better I throw everything together suffering, wastage, peace and my experiences, together one timeless energy

Poem 1073
Amsterdam, 2017-02-24
Keyword: Time 

Apples in the haze Moor at the orchard wade through soft grass and golden-yellow apples to the pond in the middle steaming in the evening Enter the round basin glide into the warm water and swim over the bottom of your primeval-applewise knowing to the stairs of the tower From the gallery, read the wind, the well the flow of time, their ripples, their depths and the misty shadows from later which in the outside world only will be recognizable when the truth in which you have bathed, is past Known once, remains known somewhere in the haze of your dressed-up consciousness

Poem 1136
Amsterdam, 2017-03-06
Aval = apple
Avalon = isle of apple trees
Primeval apple from the Garden in Eden (Paradise)
Keyword: Awareness: connection 

Germ Substance Hidden in a belly it begins In a bank of black seeds in the soil, in a blood biotope in the cortex of the unborn and then the unpredictable path like every snowflake comes to earth differently, every particle touched on its way and formed by unique contacts into distinct faces that attach and detach germinate and split into new old germ substance of your species of life Hidden in a belly it begins

Poem 1290
Amsterdam, 2017-04-22
Blood biotope: fetus in the womb
Cortex: of the ovary, which contains one million viable oocytes ('egg cells') at the time of birth of a girl
Keyword: Earth: biosphere 

Let it Seek, and ye shall find that the answer lies beneath a new question After God was found and defined as inconceivable people called: Yes, but that makes it a belief! Paul wrote it down: The old stories are no evidence neither is the new story no matter how blind I've been Go and nail it on the doors! And yet it must exist, look at the wonders around you, look at everything You shouldn't seek at all not define, but be aware be open to it and let it come and go, then you have found it

Poem 1307
Amsterdam, 2017-04-25
Matthew 07
Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.
Blind: Acts 9:8
Nail: in 1517 Martin Luther published 95 theses (Disputation on the power of indulgences), which according to later stories were posted by him on the door of the All Saints' (Castle) church in Wittenburg
Keywords: Religion: belief, Bible 

Thirst Wherever I go, always will my journey end on the shore of a sea into which the land flows with a view of infinite amniotic fluid that gives life makes everyone's blood flow and carries your seed through trenches, over mountains and valleys to the hereafter, it fills my cells, my breasts round with joy quenches my daily thirst and drowns my worries I catch it from the sky and lift it from wells

Poem 1312
Amsterdam, 2017-04-26
Water is the primordial substance (Thales) - 600
Thales of Miletus
Keyword: Lifestream (follow) 
Tribute to: Thales 

Chat box I sleep well, I exercise and I eat healthy, I can do everything I want, my body works I just keep going, I can do without breaks Do it the other way around the teacher says Thoughts can do a lot but they are ghosts above life, they know no death and they look over suffering I wish it was like that then I wouldn't be sitting here so uncomfortably learning to silence the chat box in my head

Poem 1363
Amsterdam, 2017-05-19
Vipassana: the body should be leading
Keyword: Awareness: volatile / fragments 
Dedicated to: Claudia A 

The good I receive Non-believers too have everything - received: the world, my life, your life and the duty to help each other Everything else is possible nothing else can go right or wrong In all languages we wish each other peace and happiness, the good: It is our chance and our mission it is my name, which I don't want to exchange and certainly wouldn't want to lack from her clear mouth – she's an angel everyone hears it, non-believers too

Poem 1588
Amsterdam, 2017-10-29
For Taoufik D
Toba [Hebrew] = good >> Tobiah = the goodness of God >> Tawfik/Tevfik/Togiq/Taoufik = the ability or opportunity to achieve success
Keywords: Ethics: virtues, Religion: commandments 
Dedicated to: Taoufik D 

Let me go Hope would be the worst that slow poison that constantly torments because it keeps you alive Also the hell of the rest, unleashed by the cleaners to whom I gave the keys takes too long for me Emotions are haunting around me I run to the door but the room stretches out A man shouts: What do you want? Laughing he blows away Others start to whisper yellowish I do need skates right now I empty all the cupboards, heated under the burning sun so I have to undress and know what I want where I am

Poem 1635
Amsterdam, 2017-11-25
Psychose
Door: "Lasciate ogne speranza, voi ch'intrate" ("Abandon all hope, ye who enter here"), above the gate of hell (1307-1314, "Inferno", the first part of Dante Alighieri's "La divina commedia")
Keywords: Psyche, Hope (futile) 

Wherever I look
I see buds emerging from --
my very own skin.
Voor- en achterkant,	Von vorn und hinten,
overal botten knoppen --	überall treiben Knospen --
uit mijn eigen huid.	aus meinem Körper.

Poem H1922
Amsterdam, 2017-12-23
Keyword: Self-expression (creative) 

Mind map On the way, I make a map of the roads to the roads that I do not know yet on the small earth of my body within the large body of It I learn what it needs see the roses bloom smell the fungi and recognize by the mushrooms feelings I have buried in storage holes in the ground of my body, my earth On the way, I make a map of my discoveries, of the truth of life, my soul the temporary skin between inside and outside tightened between human beings an interface, touched and read by a few

Poem 1643
Amsterdam, 2018-01-15
Keyword: Together: community 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

Verbs To have is not a verb to have is very little life, not the true one Yes, I do want to experience, enjoy remain, therefore the world to become a safer place starting with myself: hello mirror image today I want love today I want to be the two main verbs make and be make myself be make you be and then, that everything stays with the new

Poem 1657
Amsterdam, 2018-01-21
Keyword: Love: Give To Be 

The soul Sex is nature, the soul makes it happen, maybe the cells come together and the soul grows further in a new body which will become an old body that feels its temporality with a young mind that counts the years and cannot comprehend to be the soul itself that sets its mind on new lives of the eternally old and eternally young soul

Poem 1659
Amsterdam, 2018-01-22
Keyword: Soul 

What is happening The teacher strays off about the arts, useless at first and afterwards there is a use With everything it has gone like that, with language it is repeated at every birth Babies try to link our sweet words and motherese to what is happening and thus to come from provisional to definite meanings Step by step it gets useful to talk to each other even as a stranger to the strangers you don't understand

Poem 1663
Amsterdam, 2018-01-24
From Bacteria to Bach and Back: the Evolution of Minds (Daniel Dennett) - 2017
Book
Keyword: Language 
Tribute to: Dennett, Daniel 

I was alone In the early morning, I received the truth a clear sound I searched and saw no one, not even the light of an angel, it was quiet and I was alone with the truth, that calmly awaited what I would do and didn’t make a sound It was just there, and I saw clearly what was hidden from me before: the truth was big, when I looked away I still saw it in the corners of my eyes I couldn't ignore the truth My thoughts ran around and my heart was pounding and I wished I could give it away to someone but I love the people I know too much to give them unasked such a present, I was ashamed of myself in the light of the truth my heart skipped a beat and I wondered why I got it and from whom, a friend, an enemy? I did not know, I did not know what to do

Poem 1673
Amsterdam, 2018-02-14
Keyword: Truth: inner ~ 

Midsummer party:
the wind and we dance wildly --
across the sand beds.
Midzomernachtfeest:	Mittsommerfeier:
de wind en wij dansen wild --	der Wind und wir tanzen wild --
op de zandbedden.	auf den Sandbetten.

Poem H2218
Scheveningen, 2018-06-21
Keywords: Party: social, Dance 

Something's happening,
quickly it pulses closer --
I feel it, in me.
Er gebeurt iets,	Etwas passiert hier,
snel pulseert het dichterbij --	geschwind pulsiert es näher --
ik voel het, in mij.	ich spür es, in mir.

Poem H2225
Amsterdam, 2018-06-23
Electro Symphonic Orchestra - 2018
June 23^rd, 2018 at the Concertgebouw, Amsterdam
Part 2 of block 2
Keyword: Music: vibration 
Composer: Benders, Colin 

The dancing animal At most one percent of the time we live we dance, and yet our arms and legs seem to be made for it: man, the dancing animal of controlled, free courtship the high stakes of our life on the stage of each other's eyes where we want to exist in the role we have obtained and kept up Deeds not done and worries fill the days, duties the mighty spirits between the scenes afraid for the body, for suffering afraid to be or not to be a dancing animal

Poem 1920
Amsterdam, 2018-11-12
Keywords: Self-expression (nature), Dance 

Connected in our imagination My words and poses my taste and helpfulness, all of it has been demonstrated to me, time after time Together we are a copy of people who together were also a copy of people of people unique collections of ordinary habits and general peculiarities in a temporary body that draws a boundary between you and me between all souls and senses: for a multitude of experiences that we can share with each other to erase the boundaries again being connected in our imagination and to be more than ourselves

Poem 1959
Amsterdam, 2018-12-05
Keywords: Human: individuals, Human: mankind 
Dedicated to: Ellen H 

It It can be everywhere there is plenty to say about it but It remains unclear Yet we cannot be silent seduced by the mystery that we breathe that spans around us that is our heaven that binds us and has no name even when we talk about it and give It many names And there is that other mystery that drives our bodies to new life, the other one that we breathe that fulfils us that is our earth that binds us and has a name even if we are silent about it since its many names fall short

Poem 2007
Amsterdam, 2019-01-04
Worldview and sexuality
Keywords: Life: discover / explore, Universe: all 

Mindfulness: naked
I sink into the buzzing --
of life around me.
Waakzaam wakker: naakt	Wachsam bin ich wach,
zink ik weg in het gonzen --	versinke nackt im Summen --
van al het leven.	von allem Leben.

Poem H2411
Amsterdam, 2019-03-13
Springtime (Jeroen Eisinga) - 2010
Performance
Keyword: Attention: surroundings 
Tribute to: Eisinga, Jeroen 

Vibrations of time (Breath of life) I think of it, I don't feel it yet it must be there if only for a moment it must have been there quite small still growing alive becoming imperceptible vibrations which make me curious who I will be a harmony of countless vibrations the universe, the unity of time

Poem 2162
Amsterdam, 2019-03-19
?tman, the essence of all that is, creates time
Keyword: Universe 

Time is my prey I am a vulture and time is my prey If it flies, I fly faster, if it's past I devour it in my mind digesting the flesh of my experiences and wearing out my body until my beak is too weak and time escapes to its final ending

Poem 2167
Amsterdam, 2019-03-20
Keywords: Time: lifetime, Flying: vulture 

If only love is
visible, what will be left --
to see of people?
Als alleen liefde	Wenn nur die Liebe
zichtbaar is, wat zie je dan --	sichtbar ist, was siehst du dann --
nog van de mensen?	noch von den Menschen?

Poem S0858
Amsterdam, 2019-03-29
Keyword: Love: is all 

Echo-room I am living in a box a little box in a box yes, robots can live in tiny houses without needs except for the sun spare parts once in a while and commands to get out of the rut of repetition I am closed, a black box that you can read as if I were made of glass and, you'll see: I am a little box that thinks out of the box of my body an echo-room of the net

Poem 2189
Amsterdam, 2019-03-31
Keyword: Technics 

In Jerusalem
the sky merges with the trees --
in keppel kippahs.
In Jeruzalem	In Jerusalem
versmelt de lucht met bomen --	verschmelzt die Luft mit Bäumen:
in keppel keppels.	in kepplen Kippot.

Poem H2424
Amsterdam, 2019-03-31
In Dutch a kippah is called "keppel"
Colour keppel #3AB09E
Keyword: Colour 

Reason Explaining the perceptible with the imperceptible scanning it with fantasy and micro and macro senses to also understand ourselves we who are in the middle of what we experience the influences and interactions that we want to dis-cover by ridding them scientifically of magic, romance, holiness and other superstitions that keep us from knowing what we don't know

Poem 2235
Amsterdam, 2019-05-04
Keyword: Reason: logic 

Miracles with a beginning In the beginning man created the thought: everything, mankind and the earth, is a miracle with a beginning and anything that procreates will die, only the sun the stars and the stones had no end, until later infinity was conceived and they even never had begun so the rest, actually everything that is known, the world will have to perish one day and, if you dare to think it out, also the elusive time will not last and already now nothing is left but nullity

Poem 2248
Amsterdam, 2019-05-19
Keyword: Time: temporality 

A stone from paradise The giant that stopped me was a wall on the banks of the great river, far beyond the palaces where servants like angels provide a heaven on earth for princes and princesses and always there are naked sages begging before the gate, warning the people not to be under any illusions A small hatch in the wall opened, an old hand handed me a pebble a stone from paradise on the other side of the wall It was smooth. What to do with it? Aren't we all stones from paradise on this side of the wall where the kings suffer in seclusion from boredom and the trouble to keep it that way?

Poem 2286
Amsterdam, 2019-06-20
Alexander the Great (356-323) in Bharat (India), 326-325
Keywords: Paradise, Bharat (India) 

We are consumers,
we're very hungry, we eat --
all of the planet.
Consumenten zijn	Konsumenten sind
we, hongerig eten we --	wir, sehr hungrig fressen wir --
heel de planeet op.	den Planeten auf.

Poem S0921
Amsterdam, 2019-07-23
Keyword: Mankind 

Spell Lured into the cave by curly hair reflected on the ceiling behind the entrance, I hope to discover a wonder not believing in an evil spell that will rape me on a chilly oyster bank I shiver on the nail bed that is cutting open my skin while I repeat the mantra It's not real, the knives about to fall, the horror of the maggots that slither to my eyes and pop into my head like dying fireworks It's not real, It's not real it's the cool of the mountain it's ice drip and stalactites it's the shiny glitter of water on the wall, wonders of pristine nature, feeding my imagination with images of what I don't want to do to her

Poem 2418
Amsterdam, 2019-09-21
Keyword: Balance: 

I've plenty of time
for Qigong since you left me --
I wait not-waiting.
Ik heb tijd genoeg	Seit du weg bist: Zeit
voor Qigong nu jij weg bent --	genug für Qigong, wartend --
Niet-wachtend wacht ik.	ohne zu warten.

Poem H2586
Vaison-la-Romaine, 2019-10-16
Keyword: Calm: tardiness 

I'm forest bathing
in smells, waving, twittering --
scattered cracking sounds.
Ik neem een bosbad	Ich nehme ein Bad
in geuren, wuiven, tjilpen --	in Düften, Wiegen, Zwitschern --
knappende takjes.	knackenden Zweigen.

Poem H2590
Amsterdam, 2019-10-21
Shinrin-yoku
Keyword: Senses 
Dedicated to: Guido dP 

I lost you now You snooped on my phone but didn't discover any shame no naked confessions you searched in vain for a double life exciting intimacies a corps in a wardrobe, secrets between the lines I have breathed in those old statuses, for you they are empty, boring rooms dusty and cobwebbed Keep them as memories It doesn't touch me that you were where you shouldn't be I'm already somewhere else

Poem 2511
Amsterdam, 2019-11-10
Sonnet VI (Edna Saint Vincent Millay) - 1917
Poem (collection "Renascence and Other Poems")
Keyword: Privacy 
Tribute to: Saint Vincent Millay, Edna 

Farmlands and pastures,
with the crops and the livestock --
it is peace, right there.
Akkers en weiden,	Felder und Wiesen,
de gewassen en het vee --	die Nutzpflanzen und das Vieh --
daar is het vrede.	dort gibt es Frieden.

Poem H2633
Amsterdam, 2019-11-23
Keywords: Peace: order, Culture: agriculture 

Weaving springs It has already been two weeks since we wrote to each other, rejoiced weaving springs into a poem about love in which we mix ourselves with the candour of a friend and our need for being connected You rhyme with me into an ethereal love, we create daisies in waving fields with kissing gates in the hawthorn the golden keys shine upon our hearts Come in and play, dance blind man's buff, reach and touch each other's soul

Poem 2525
Amsterdam, 2019-12-02
Blind man's buff (blindfold tag) is an ancient game, popular with the wealthy bourgeoisie in the 18th century, in response to the decency norm that physical contact is prohibited
Keyword: Together: connected 
Dedicated to: Sylvia F C 

My soul is searching the good life We are our own public ours is the city, the fountain playing my stage, it is not allowed but the night is warm and I feel like it Marcello comes down the stairs he would rather watch, yet he stoops, puts his shoes next to the glass of milk and steps into the water Caressing, he folds his hands around my head, still without touching me yes! yes! he is searching for my lips the world seems to stand still I feel his breath as he freezes and looks back at a man on the bike with a pizza box on his head His soul is confused

Poem 2661
Amsterdam, 2020-01-30
The good life (Federico Fellini) - 1960
Film "La dolce vita"
Keyword: In love: exploration 
Tribute to: Fellini, Federico 

The Fly Humans can be strong like a bear, with a gun or a cannon, and swim like the fastest fish, with sails or a motor, they can even fly with large wings that don't need to strike and therefore are not real wings An airplane is a thing the true flyer is the Fly All birds are jealous of it because it wears the crown of its name, credit where credit is due: the Fly

Poem 2963
Amsterdam, 2020-04-26
Keyword: Language 
Dedicated to: Lotte W 

Being there, that's it,
he smiles at me, gardens live --
and are never done.
Er zijn, dat is het,	Dasein, das ist es,
glimlacht de tuinman, een tuin --	lächelt er, ein Garten lebt --
leeft en is nooit af.	und ist nie fertig.

Poem H2705
Amsterdam, 2020-05-12
Movie "Being there" (1979)
Keyword: Life: experience 
Tribute to: Sellers, Peter 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

The odour, a mix
of earth and decaying leaves --
of both life and death.
De gemengde geur	Der Duft von Erde
van aarde en rottend blad --	und verrottende Blättern --
van leven en dood.	von Leben und Tod.

Poem H2708
Amsterdam, 2020-05-19
Forest air, earthy odour (geosmin)
Keywords: Life: experience, Death: and life 

You, unhappy one,
life is hard, you just have to --
make it together.
Ongelukkige,	Du Unglücklicher,
het leven is hard, je moet --	leben ist schwer, du musst es --
het samen redden.	zusammen schaffen.

Poem H2709
Amsterdam, 2020-05-29
Keyword: Together: contribution / social 

Ancient chemistry:
his pipette squirts elixir --
into her retort.
Oeroude chemie:	Urchemie: seine
zijn pipet spuit elixer --	Pipette spritzt Elixier --
diep in haar retort.	in ihren Kolben.

Poem H2719
Amsterdam, 2020-06-12
Keyword: Love: intimacy (physical) 

To live is to feel
that you're losing what you get --
but Goodness remains.
Leven is voelen	Leben heißt fühlen:
dat je kwijtraakt wat je krijgt --	man verliert, was man bekommt --
alleen Goedheid blijft.	nur die Güte bleibt.

Poem H2769
Amsterdam, 2020-08-19
Monologue "Slanter, the Evil Tongue"
Keyword: Help (goodness) 

The hilly country
gives us to drink from its lap --
heavenly nectar.
De heuvels geven	Die Hügel geben
ons te drinken uit hun schoot --	zu trinken aus ihrem Schoß --
hemelse nectar.	himmlischer Nektar.

Poem H2785
Amsterdam, 2020-10-02
Between the two Imose hills ("Sister-Brother") flows the river Yoshino
Keyword: Earth: mother 

We have a picnic,
together on a blanket --
we are eating peace.
Op een kleed zitten	Auf einer Decke:
we te picknicken, samen --	unser Picknick, zusammen --
eten we vrede.	essen wir Frieden.

Poem H2810
Amsterdam, 2020-10-12
Keyword: Peace: 

Metamorphic body (Qiflow) It does not need me, no matter what I do, leave and think It is It flows or gathers If I surrender and let It go by Itself without having to do anything I become conscious of It I experience It thoughtlessly soul in the Soul flow with the Flow a metamorphic body of It I breathe and perceive It, where It does not flow It will flow

Poem 3280
Amsterdam, 2020-11-14
Keyword: Reiki 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

Because it is that way Broken contact, what can you say about it, do you have to talk about missing it? Having lost someone who is still there, but never with you not as it could have been Having our own lives, you because you decided so and I because it is that way If it wasn't so we would feel what we don't feel now mutuality, togetherness a sideshow though, yes we let life flow It can go around obstacles it does not need any comment and no afterword

Poem 3282
Amsterdam, 2020-11-14
Keyword: Missing: 
Dedicated to: Tessel vB 

What is old and spent
in me? What can germinate?
How shall I live on?
Wat is oud en op	Was ist ausgenutzt
in mij? Wat kan ontkiemen?	in mir? Was kann auskiemen?
Hoe wil ik leven?	Wie will ich leben?

Poem H2833
Amsterdam, 2020-11-24
Self-knowledge
New Year
Keyword: Identity: experiences 

Just look, there is more
to see among the branches --
in the winteryard.
Kijk maar, er is meer	Schau mal, es gibt mehr
te zien tussen de takken --	drüben zwischen den Zweigen --
in de wintertuin.	im Wintergarten.

Poem H2864
Amsterdam, 2020-12-21
Keyword: Attention: observe 
Dedicated to: Marlies D, Christel H, Benny B 

Keep feeling alive,
that's just what it's all about --
your body does know.
Onderweg voelen	Es geht ja darum,
dat je leeft, daar gaat het om --	sich lebendig zu fühlen --
je lichaam weet dat.	das weiß dein Körper.

Poem H2866
Amsterdam, 2020-12-21
"Zywa"
Keyword: Life: experience 
Dedicated to: Ellen H 

I dont know how'much
longer, but now, I'm with you --
now, I laugh with you.
Ik weet niet hoe lang	Wer weiß wie lange
nog, maar nu zit ik bij jou --	noch, aber jetzt bin ich hier --
nu lach ik met jou.	lache ich mit dir.

Poem H2878
Amsterdam, 2020-12-30
Keyword: Attention: for someone 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

With insight into
human nature you also --
understand yourself.
Met mensenkennis	Mit Menschenkenntnis
begrijp je naast anderen --	kannst du neben anderen --
misschien ook jezelf.	auch dich selbst kennen.

Poem H2911
Amsterdam, 2021-03-07
Keyword: Self-knowledge (acquire) 

Peep at my figure,
with the wind wild in my hair --
I'm fearlessly free.
Begluur mijn figuur,	Belauer mich schon,
de wind wild in mijn haren --	der Wind in meinen Haaren --
ik ben vrij, niet bang.	ich bin furchtlos frei.

Poem S1150
Amsterdam, 2021-03-21
Keyword: Freedom: 

Ergot Farewell Mother Earth You nourish me and let me experience what you are in the illusion of myself in which I think I exist fickle and partly hardened My goodbye is involuntary there are still fronts where fighting is going on I don't want morphine, rather give me acid then I'll let go surrender to the truth of the illusion of the all Because as long as I'm there of course I am one with what I am not

Poem 3762
Amsterdam, 2021-04-28
Claviceps purpurea (Ergot) and Hyoscyamus niger (Henbane) were used as a psychedelic agent (LSD) respectively in Eleusis (1500 BC - 400 AD) and Pompeii (650 BC - 79 AD)
LSD = LysergSäure Diethylamid
Keyword: Death: dying 

Ballerina The girl looked at me as I entered Her eyes followed my slow steps my high knees, and my waving wayang arms Like an office ballerina from the Ministry of Silly Walks I offered her a glass of water Then I took her hand and pulled her up I closed my eyes unleashed my tongue, my voice my muscles, and my weight flowing around her squirming on the floor and somersaulting around until I felt thirsty eased off little by little and loooked where I was

Poem 3765
Amsterdam, 2021-04-29
John Cleese in 1970
Keyword: Desire (wish-dream) 
Tribute to: Monty Python 

All my life it is
mysterious that I think --
with all my body.
Levenslang is het	So geheimnisvoll:
geheimzinnig dat ik denk --	mein ganzer Körper ersinnt --
met heel mijn lichaam.	meine Gedanken.

Poem H3002
Amsterdam, 2021-08-07
Keyword: Awareness: senses 

Life gives me a lot,
and I still have no idea --
who is the giver.
Het leven geeft veel,	Das Leben gibt viel,
en het blijft me een raadsel --	und es bleibt mir ein Rätsel --
wie de schenker is.	wer der Schenker ist.

Poem H3040
Amsterdam, 2021-09-10
Keyword: Receiving 

In semidarkness
the cat strides from low to high --
over the white keys.
In het halfduister	Die Katze schreitet
schrijdt de kat van laag naar hoog --	im Zwielicht von tief zu hoch --
over de toetsen.	über die Tasten.

Poem H3048
Amsterdam, 2021-09-19
Keywords: Music: sound, Animals: cat 

My world tree Under my skull, my heaven firmament is a world tree branching off and that is me Memories live there in flashes of time bounced at from outside, here and there lighting up to a memory field, all sorts of things in a fluent wave simultaneously actively present, to muster to be or not to be a world of possibilities all true for a second or false and unnoticed when the light extinguishes and the flash of my knowing hooks on to another memory

Poem 3943
Amsterdam, 2021-09-22
Consciousness as a series of quantum processes in the fractal structure of the neuron network of the brain
Keyword: Awareness: connection 

Older than I am I do know it is me that woman I don't know that friendly but strange face, which is also on photos with a wide mouth, with folds crow's feet and high temples that do not match, not with me not with my hands, that eagerly touch life Only the eyes of others are used to the mask that I cannot take off Even my own sister is not surprised, she knows me older than I am

Poem 3949
Amsterdam, 2021-09-24
Keywords: Old age: process, Identity: self-image 

The vast drowned country
has become a paradise --
full of water birds.
Het verdronken land:	Ertrunkenes Land:
een paradijs geworden --	ein Paradies geworden --
vol watervogels.	mit Wasservögeln.

Poem H3076
Train Amsterdam-Alkmaar, 2021-10-22
Keyword: Paradise 

The fluctuating
flood-mark, a boundary of --
dry seaweed flowers.
De lijn van de vloed,	Linie der Flut,
een wisselgrens op het zand:	Wechselgrenze auf dem Sand::
dorre wierbloemen.	trockne Tangblumen.

Poem H3101
Egmond aan Zee, 2021-10-28
Keywords: Beach, Nature: plants 

Skew mirror image,
from our dual unity --
We seem so twisted.
Ons spiegelbeeld trekt	Unser Spiegelbild
scheef van onze twee-eenheid --	ist schief von der Zwei-Einheit --
We lijken verknipt.	Wir scheinen verdreht.

Poem S1301
Amsterdam, 2021-12-27
Keyword: Love: bond (twoness) 
Dedicated to: Mark H, Marijke T 

If there's a nothing,
it remains nothing, things are --
evolved out of things.
Als er een niets is,	Wenn es ein Nichts gibt,
blijft het niets, want iets is iets --	bleibt es nichts, etwas entsteht --
dat ontstond uit iets.	immer aus etwas.

Poem H3161
Amsterdam, 2021-12-28
On nature (Parmenides) - -455
Didactic poem "De natura"
Keyword: Beginning (origin) 
Tribute to: Parmenides 

The clouds are the blood
of planet Earth, my mother --
the blood of my blood.
Wolken zijn het bloed	Wolken sind das Blut
van de Aarde, mijn moeder --	der Erde, meiner Mutter --
het bloed van mijn bloed.	Blut meines Blutes.

Poem H3174
Amsterdam, 2022-01-10
Keyword: Earth: mother 

The talking between
I am me and you are you --
goes from soul to soul.
Het gesprek tussen	Das Gespräch zwischen
ik ben ik en jij bent jij --	ich bin ich und du bist du --
gaat van ziel tot ziel.	berührt zwei Seelen.

Poem H3282
Amsterdam, 2022-04-23
Keyword: Communication (unconsciously) 

Last goodbye Last goodbye over the merlons, stepping stones and not afraid to fall I know that the water is cold and flowing dreadfully fast with pointed stones fluctuating at unclear depths nothing wrong as long as I don't look down and someone has to come and help me because my body can't do what it thinks cannot float as if I am standing on the solid ground as dangerous and safe as life, but if I let go everything is possible, everything is and I am free

Poem 4489
Amsterdam, 2022-05-25
Keyword: Goodbye: dying / death 

Sun within the walls Domestic happiness together a farewell from time to time and then a child comes in No men in our arms no fuss, we say to the teenager among us Forgetting the world forgotten by the world being free within the walls eternal sunshine in my spotless mind As a temple, cleansed with the wind, which takes away what is not possible with the water from the holy well the sacrificial barley cakes of the earth and the always burning fire in the hearth the eternal stream within the walls of my life

Poem 4568
Amsterdam, 2022-07-04
Alexander Pope (London 1688-1744) about the Vestal Virgins in his poem "Eloisa to Abelard" (1717) on Abelard and Héloïse:
207 How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
208 The world forgetting, by the world forgot:
209 Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
210 Each prayer accepted, and each wish resign'd;
211 Labour and rest, that equal periods keep;
Keywords: Freedom: mental, Time: eternity 

I fulfil your wish,
your will is my will, the will --
of my enslaver.
Ik vervul jouw wens,	Ich gehorche dir,
jouw wil is mijn wil, de wil --	dein Wunsch ist mein Wunsch, der Wunsch --
van mijn eigenaar.	meines Besitzers.

Poem S1475
Amsterdam, 2022-07-14
Serfdom
Keyword: Equality: inequality 

There's another pile
of small gradual changes --
One more year has passed.
Een nieuwe stapel	Ein neuer Stapel
kleine veranderingen:	kleiner Veränderungen --
weer een jaar voorbij.	des letzten Jahres.

Poem H3390
Amsterdam, 2022-07-18
Keyword: Change: process 

Night, melancholy
after all these timeless hours --
that had a future.
De avond, weemoed	Der Abend, Wehmut
naar de tijdloze uren --	nach den zeitlosen Stunden --
die toekomst hadden.	mit einer Zukunft.

Poem H3396
Amsterdam, 2022-07-30
Keyword: Old age: melancholy 

My metamorphic
body has become meagre --
transparent by now.
Mijn wissellichaam	Mein Wechselkörper
verdwijnt, mijn buik wordt mager --	schwindet, der Bauch wird mager --
is al doorzichtig.	ist schon durchscheinend.

Poem H3397
Amsterdam, 2022-07-30
Keyword: Old age: ailments / defects 

Repairs all the time,
to stay myself, my meta-
morphical body.
Aldoor reparaties	Immer die Wartung,
om te blijven wie ik ben:	um zu bleiben, wer ich bin:
mijn wissellichaam.	mein Wechselkörper.

Poem H3398
Amsterdam, 2022-07-30
Keyword: Body: functioning 

My metamorphic
body dies of the glutton --
of colonisers.
Mijn wissellichaam	Mein Wechselkörper
sterft aan kanker, de veelvraat --	stirbt an Krebs, dieser Vielfraß --
van kolonisten.	von Kolonisten.

Poem S1488
Amsterdam, 2022-07-30
Keyword: Colonialism 

Just metamorphic
bodies are we, hovering --
between fear and death.
Wissellichamen	Wir sind nur Wechsel-
zijn wij, hulpeloos zwevend --	körper, die hilflos schweben --
tussen dood en vrees.	zwischen Furcht und Tod.

Poem H3414
Amsterdam, 2022-08-12
Keywords: Lifestream (on the way), Death: and life 

Happy End The fulfillment of a wish is a brief happiness a happy ending if you then die or make a start, on something new a next phase or a next step For a lasting Happy End, the hereafter has been invented and the comfort you derive from descendants with the added thought that later, some day everything will be fine That's how it goes without a realistic view of universal happiness and without the rush of an illusion you may learn to go with the flow that concludes nothing

Poem 4676
Amsterdam, 2022-09-16
Keyword: Life: course (end) 

I'm calm and quiet,
just as the windless world is --
in the autumn sun.
Ik ben even stil	Ich bin genauso
als de windstille wereld --	still wie die windstille Welt --
in de najaarszon.	in der Herbstsonne.

Poem H3494
Berg en Dal, 2022-10-11
Keyword: Calm: harmony 

The blue, green and red:
heaven, hilltops and valleys --
and the park benches.
Het blauw, groen en rood:	Das Blau, Grün und Rot:
hemel, heuvels en dalen --	Himmel, Hügel und Täler --
en de parkbanken.	und die Parkbänke.

Poem H3495
Berg en Dal, 2022-10-11
In the past the temples were red
Keyword: Harmony: balance 

Remaining open-
minded is an advanced art --
of living, no doubt.
Onbevangenheid	Unbefangenheit
behouden is levenskunst --	ist eine Lebenskunst für --
voor gevorderden.	Fortgeschrittene.

Poem H3529
Amsterdam, 2022-10-25
Keyword: Openness 
Dedicated to: Margot F 

The scent of autumn
in the town park, I relax --
with deep breaths of peace.
De geur van herfst	Der Duft des Herbstes
in het park, ik ontspan me --	im Park, ich entspanne mich --
en adem vrede.	und atme Frieden.

Poem H3539
Amsterdam, 2022-10-29
Keyword: Harmony: relaxation 

Useful Detrimental Children eat from the tree of life At first, they don't know any others then they don't dare right away but eventually they taste new fruits, carefully When necessary, they are brave and swallow it with a wry face This way, they learn to choose between useful and detrimental adapting their world a little to their will and ability using knowledge and inventions Smarter than the smartest animal

Poem 4887
Amsterdam, 2022-12-12
Genesis 03:01
Smartest animal: the serpent
Study "Words become Worlds" ("Words become worlds", 1994, Ellen van Wolde): § 2 and 3, published separately in 1989
Keywords: Reason: discrimination, Bible 

Concurrence The hour has struck Immediately we forget the time and wish each other all the best and boredom that blessed can do everything with the peaceful ticking of grandma's clock without the hands of an agenda that calls Action! New Year, the realization that time in ourselves never passes In one body we are years of experiences that are not closed but do themselves well on new discoveries and occasionally set us thinking about how it all comes together

Poem 4903
Amsterdam, 2023-01-01
Keywords: Time: lifetime, New Year 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

Action, reaction,
the earth is just what it is --
without creator.
Actie, reactie,	Aktion, Reaktion,
de aarde is wat ze is --	die Erde ist, was sie ist --
zonder een maker.	ohne Hersteller.

Poem H3639
Amsterdam, 2023-01-02
In reference to the movie title "Werk ohne Autor" ("Work without a maker" [released as "Never Look Away"], 2018, Florian Henckel von Donnersmarck)
Keyword: Earth: biosphere 

The blessing of immaturity What has to do with God is complicated, the mind wants logic and does not give up easily searching for every beginning reasoning from a perfect creation to the known world the people, their inclinations self-indulgence, curiosity impatience and stupidity - their immaturity which gave them the opportunity to become reasonable to become adults and to experience life as it is

Poem 4910
Amsterdam, 2023-01-03
Keywords: Ethics: practice, Adultness (reason) 

I am so happy
to see the billions of stars --
and not hear their noise!
Ik ben gelukkig	Ich bin froh, dass ich
dat ik de sterren zie en --	die Sterne sehe und nicht --
hun herrie niet hoor!	ihren Lärm höre!

Poem H3672
Amsterdam, 2023-01-16
Asteroseismology
Keyword: Universe: connection 
Dedicated to: Zoë T 

Be a uomo
universale at last --
and then: retirement.
Mens zijn, uomo	Mensch sein, uomo
universale worden --	universale werden --
en dan: het pensioen.	und dann: die Rente.

Poem H3676
Amsterdam, 2023-01-17
Keyword: Life: course (end) 

From clouds from spitfire
the green mountain hails itself --
a dress of ashes.
Uit wolken uit vuur	Wolken aus Feuer,
hagelt de groene spitsberg --	der grüne Berg hagelt sich --
zich een kleed van as.	ein Kleid aus Asche.

Poem H3678
Amsterdam, 2023-01-20
Keyword: Nature: elements 

Great, swimming at night,
alone in the silent lake --
black trees around me.
Nachts zwemmen, alleen, 's	Nachts schwimmen, allein
in het stille meer, omringd --	im stillen See, umgeben --
door zwarte bomen.	von schwarzen Bäumen.

Poem H3739
Amsterdam, 2023-02-21
Keywords: Night, Silence 

ThereHere and ThenNow,
enigma of dimensions --
TaiJi, TwoOneness.
DaarHier en ToenNu,	DortHier, DamalsJetzt,
het raadsel van dimensies --	Rätsel der Dimensionen --
TaiJi, TweeEenheid.	TaiJi, ZweiEinheit.

Poem H3758
Amsterdam, 2023-03-19
Keywords: Awareness: reality, Universe 

Causes and effects,
implicated in something --
like the One and All.
Oorzaak en gevolg,	Ursache, Wirkung,
besloten in zoiets als --	implizit in etwas wie --
het Ene Alles.	das Eine Alles.

Poem H3759
Amsterdam, 2023-03-19
Singularity
Keywords: Knowledge: science, Universe 

Hologram of the universe All the elements that we arrange in the Periodic Table, the very first bacteria and also we humans are creators of the universe In time and space we transform the energy and co-write the imperishable facts on the edges of black holes That information already existed as Creator giving it space and time with a big bang It's inconceivably and inseparably both energy and information are aspects of each other My mind doesn't get that Even if in deep meditation my consciousness unites with all that exists, I am ignorant

Poem 5106
Amsterdam, 2023-03-20
On the Origin of Time (Thomas Hertog) - 2023
The "Akashic Records", a theosophical concept of Charles Leadbeater and Alice Bailey, later used by Rudolf Steiner, based on the book "The Secret Doctrine: The Synthesis of Science, Religion and Philosophy" on cosmogenesis (1888) by Helena Blavatsky
Cosmology in the study "On the Origin of Time: Stephen Hawking's Final Theory" (2023, Thomas Hertog)
See also poem 1069. Quiet beholding (February 23rd, 2017), the translation of 0522. Stille aanschouwing (November 29th, 2015)
Samadhi: mindless absorption in Being
Keywords: Awareness: connection, Universe 
Tribute to: Hertog, Thomas; Blavatsky, Helena 

Our home is: the earth.
People come from their childhood --
not from a country.
Thuis is: de aarde.	Heim ist: die Erde.
We komen niet uit een land --	Man stammt aus seiner Kindheit --
maar uit onze jeugd.	nicht aus einem Land.

Poem H3829
Amsterdam, 2023-05-25
I remember all your dreams (René Frégni) - 2016
To the statement "On n'est pas d'un pays, on est de son enfance" ("We are not from a country, we are from our childhood" in the poetic short story collection "Je me souviens de tous vos rêves"
Keywords: Mankind, Earth: mother 
Tribute to: Fregni, Rene 

My body gets old,
my mind thinks to be still young --
thinks it is more me.
Mijn lichaam wordt oud,	Mein Körper wird alt,
mijn geest denkt nog jong te zijn --	mein Geist denkt, er sei noch jung --
denkt meer mij te zijn.	denkt, er sei mehr ich.

Poem S1832
Amsterdam, 2023-07-27
Mind-body dualism
The harmony of accepting your own body as it is
Keyword: Body: and mind 

Coming to an end,
familiar shops close, closing --
my lifetime as well.
Het loopt op zijn eind,	Es geht zu Ende,
vertrouwde winkels sluiten --	vertraute Läden schließen --
ook mijn leven af.	ja auch mein Leben.

Poem H4021
Amsterdam, 2023-08-10
Keyword: Life: course (end) 

The Zen teacher takes
my watercolour, lays it --
in the drizzling rain.
De zenleraar legt	Der Zen-Lehrer legt
mijn aquarel netjes neer --	mein Aquarell ordentlich --
in de motregen.	in den Sprühregen.

Poem H4046
Amsterdam, 2023-08-17
Keyword: Time: temporality 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

My thoughts: still youthful,
my eagerness: middle-aged --
my muscles: grown old.
Mijn gedachten: jong,	Die Gedanken: jung,
mijn gretigheid: middelbaar,	die Begierde: mittlere,
mijn spieren: bejaard.	die Muskeln: bejahrt.

Poem H4072
Amsterdam, 2023-08-24
Keyword: Old age: ailments / defects 

I still feel quite fit,
but tired in my head, let me --
sleep, sleep forever.
Ik voel me wel fit,	Ich fühle mich fit,
maar moe in mijn hoofd, laat me --	nur müde im Kopf, lass mich --
slapen, inslapen.	schlafen, einschlafen.

Poem H4178
Amsterdam, 2023-09-23
Keyword: Life: course (end) 

It is visible
in the shadows, we are one --
piece: the chair creature.
Aan de schaduwen	An den Schatten kann
zie je het goed, uit één stuk --	man es erkennen, wir sind --
zijn we: de stoelmens.	ein Guss: der Stuhlmensch.

Poem H4184
Amsterdam, 2023-09-29
In the Organpark on September 29^th, 2023
Keyword: Culture: way of living 

Patterns Whether they were clouds birds, or tea leaves people searched under the tides, the seasons and the migration of the flocks for more patterns as a hold against sudden dangers That is their own pattern, I too can be myself and rely on evolutionary wisdom which with all the stupidity and adversity will continue to make the best of it and on the resources developed from the need for everything going to be okay even if it is not possible

Poem 5351
Amsterdam, 2023-10-29
Keyword: Order: pattern 
Dedicated to: Marije S 

Under the bottom
the star clusters angrily --
stare at the people.
Onder de bodem	Unter dem Boden
staren de sterrenclusters --	starren die Sternenschwärme --
boos naar de mensen.	wütend auf die Welt.

Poem S1987
Amsterdam, 2023-11-01
Jesus is crossed (Marlene Dumas) - 1983
Painting "Jesus is boos"
Keyword: Fantasy: imagination 
Tribute to: Dumas, Marlene 

1000 years old, still
being a living statue:
the Wicked Step Queen.
1000 jaar oud, nog	1000 Jahre alt
altijd een levend standbeeld:	als lebende Statue:
de stiefkoningin.	die Stiefkönigin.

Poem S2011
Amsterdam, 2023-11-24
The Living Statue. A Legend (Günter Grass) - 2006
To commemorate Uta van Ballenstedt (c. 1000-1046), married to Margrave Ekkehard II of Meißen, as one of the founders of the Naumburg Cathedral her statue was put on the facade; Walt Disney based the looks of Snow White's Evil Queen on this statue
Tale "Figurenstehen. Eine Legende" (published in 2023)
Keyword: Education 
Tribute to: Grass, Günter 

Fission fungus Leave me alone until I'm human again and pretend you didn't guess didn't say out loud what I'm keeping secret : the fission fungus that tears everything in two in my head I am done for, I can't exist anymore, I'll go crazy or become zombie I know you don't want it you don't want to say goodbye Come into my arms my thirst cannot be quenched and you must live on

Poem 5416
Amsterdam, 2024-01-23
recently (Anjet Daanje) - 2016
Psychoses in untreated bipolar disorder
Novel "jl." (the title also refers to the character Juno Linnaarts), chapter September 23^rd, 2011
Keyword: Disease (psycho-soma) 
Tribute to: Daanje, Anjet 

The mushrooms shoot up
rapidly and then unfold --
their pointed gnome hat.
De paddenstoelen	Die Pilze schießen
schieten op en ontvouwen --	empor und entfalten dann --
hun kaboutermuts.	ihren Gnomenhut.

Poem H4457
Amsterdam, 2024-01-24
Keyword: Nature: fungus 

Living on grounds, streets, and quays Archaeologists of our time examine the exposed sand between the foundations for the future Retro is modern cars are banned tourists consume the old town Big money flows outside the city centre Within the canal district permits are skimming it Residents are leaving the harsh world of stone, glass, and concrete they veer to canals with islands of greenery, to boats and houses with hollyhocks on the facades and gardens on the rooftops

Poem 5419
Amsterdam, 2024-02-18
Keywords: City (plants, animals), Amsterdam, Tourism 

Beady eyes, his beard
jutting out: he is steadfast --
So go around him.
Kraalogen, zijn baard	Perlenaugen, Bart
vooruit: hij is standvastig --	ragt nach vorn: er ist standhaft --
Je moet om hem heen.	Geh um ihn herum.

Poem H4524
Amsterdam, 2024-02-18
Keyword: Reason: estimate 

Temple in the forest Today, an excursion to a temple somewhere further along the river and we don't take anything with us although no one seems to be there so there will be no daily rites This must be a lesson We walk single file through the forest, we walk over the edge of a basin, we are there in the middle of the temple a row of orange flags in the open cave of the waterfalls of time which overwhelm me and carry me away, for a week I can't be found Only the forest sees me while my body meditates and does not know that I exist

Poem 5449
Amsterdam, 2024-03-06
Samsara (Lois Patiño) - 2023
Film; novices in orange robes visit a semicircular amphitheatre with waterfalls
Keywords: Religion: holiness, Laos, Meditation 

Almost touchable We wear face masks while she is working and I see myself transform, changing colour into a super being blue as a goddess the decay of my body well camouflaged seemingly charmed away What do I show in this skin? Myself, almost touchable? To strange eyes I could not be more intimate

Poem 5467
Amsterdam, 2024-03-24
Keywords: Body: decline, Identity: self-image 

Long robes turn people
into imitation ghosts --
having no bodies.
Lange gewaden	Lange Gewänder
maken van mensen spoken --	machen Menschen zu Geistern --
zonder een lichaam.	Keine Körper mehr.

Poem S2157
Amsterdam, 2024-03-25
Keywords: Clothes, Spirit / Ghost(s) 

The composers are
dead, the music is performed --
Like we like it now.
De componisten	Die Komponisten
zijn dood, de muziek klinkt nu --	sind tot, die Musik erklingt --
Op onze manier.	Auf unsere Art.

Poem S2182
Amsterdam, 2024-04-28
Keywords: Culture: reuse / recycling, Tradition 

Thinking reed The dramatic question What is going on with me? What's happening in the world around me? Everything moves I follow and think about what it means and the images shift I bend to the wind which always blows There is never any certainty as to what is going on

Poem 5518
Amsterdam, 2024-04-29
Thoughts (Blaise Pascal) - 1669
Thinking reed: "Pensées" (Blaise Pascal), section VI "Foy sans raisonnement" ("The Philosophers" / "Faith without reasoning"), Pensée #347 - L'homme n'est qu'un roseau, le plus faible de la nature; mais c'est un roseau pensant.
Keyword: Thinking (order) 
Tribute to: Pascal, Blaise 

People are matter
that works together and learns --
what it shows to be.
Wij zijn materie	Wir sind Materie,
die samenwerkt en beseft --	die zusammenarbeitet --
wat ze blijkbaar is.	und lernt was sie ist.

Poem H4708
Amsterdam, 2024-06-17
Synenergism
Keywords: Awareness: reality, Universe: connection 

Turning point The Discovery, first by the doctor then by me, my journey along the keywords: - Harmony (disturbed) - Understanding (my condition could not be understood with all the explanations and reasonable assumptions and my intuition is blind) - the Order (lost, everything under the sign of the end - negative) Growth - only Care - and Attention, like when my life began, but now I need to entertain myself, go on a diet and abandon what I am no longer capable of, I need Cleanliness, Calm, and Routine need to understand the familiar differently and drift along in good times and in bad keep noticing the wonders and surrender to the Power in which everything is Connected

Poem 5542
Amsterdam, 2024-07-08
Keywords: Life: course (end), Disease (serious / deadly) 

The mother's belly
spins a large spiral of life --
around her navel.
De moederbuik draait	Der Mutterbauch dreht
een spiraal van het leven --	eine Lebensspirale --
rondom haar navel.	um ihren Nabel.

Poem H4919
De Koog, 2024-09-18
Clay water beings, by Kerstin Edelmann
Keyword: Life: energy 
Tribute to: Edelmann, Kerstin 

Customer survey:
Are you not a robot? Do --
you fit the profile?
Klantenonderzoek:	Kundenbefragung:
Bent u geen robot? Voldoet --	Sie sind kein Roboter? Sie --
u aan het profiel?	passen ins Profil?

Poem S2979
Amsterdam, 2024-10-04
Keywords: Trade, Communication (digital) 

Sad to say, so much
beauty that we remember --
has to die with us...
Ach, zoveel schoonheid	Ach, so viel Schönheit,
die wij ons herinneren --	an die wir uns erinnern --
zal met ons sterven...	wird mit uns sterben...

Poem H4994
Amsterdam, 2024-10-20
Keyword: Life: experience 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

The fallow land, strewn
with stones, bugs in the wild plants --
Another third day.
Braak land vol stenen,	Steine im Ödland,
wat beestjes in wild gewas --	Tierchen im wilden Gewächs --
Weer de derde dag.	Die dritten Tage.

Poem H5012
Amsterdam, 2024-10-25
Genesis 01:10-13
Keywords: Emptiness / Void, Bible 

I don't feel like it,
shall I hibernate, although --
there will be no spring?
Ik heb geen zin, zal	Ich hab keine Lust,
ik gaan winterslapen, al --	soll ich Winterschlaf halten --
komt er geen lente?	nur, ohne Frühling?

Poem S2447
Amsterdam, 2024-11-09
Keyword: Body: decline 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

The mummy body
is without breath, as God once --
created Adam.
Het mummie-lichaam	Mumienkörper
zonder adem, zoals ooit God --	ohne Atem, wie Gott einst --
de eerste mens schiep.	den Menschen erschuf.

Poem H5075
Amsterdam, 2024-11-16
Head of E.O.W. (Frank Auerbach) - 1958
Genesis 02:07
Painting

Genesis 2:7 And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life
Keywords: Breath, Bible 
Tribute to: Auerbach, Frank 

Are we not clay, lumps
of ochre and lime, dung heaps --
for eggs and maggots?
Zijn wij klei, klodders	Sind wir Lehm, Ocker-
oker en kalk, mesthopen --	und Kalkklumpen, Misthaufen --
voor vliegeneitjes?	für Fliegeneier?

Poem H5076
Amsterdam, 2024-11-16
Head of Helen Gillespie - II (Frank Auerbach) - 1964
Painting

Keywords: Life: course (end), Death: and life 
Tribute to: Auerbach, Frank 

Rocking in the wonder By itself I was myself, the souled body with my name Mirrors helped me as a teenager to see myself my hair, my nose, my shape A life later I split my body off, more and more I distance myself from the defects of old age and illness to continue to recognise myself as who I want to have become spiritually safe and free rocking in the wonder until I am no more

Poem 5619
Amsterdam, 2025-03-03
The emergence of dualism, the separation of the body and the (supposedly immaterial) mind
Keyword: Body: and mind 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

This day and the year,
my clothes too, it takes a while --
and then new is old.
Deze dag, het jaar,	Dieser Tag, das Jahr,
mijn kleren, het duurt even --	Kleidung, eine Weile und --
en dan is nieuw oud.	dann wird aus neu alt.

Poem H5381
Amsterdam, 2025-04-17
With a photo of Lotte and Neon-advertising (Amsterdam, February 17th, 2023), neon = new; written on my 73rd birthday
Keyword: New: renewal 
Dedicated to: Lotte W 

Houses with closed doors,
city within the city --
Everyone is dead.
Een stad in de stad,	Die Stadt in der Stadt,
huizen met dichte deuren --	Häuser mit geschlossenen
Iedereen is dood.	Türen. Nur Töten.

Poem H5415
Amsterdam, 2025-04-26
With a photo of the burial houses at the Rond Point Casimir Périer in the Père Lachaise cemetery in Paris (March 26th, 1991)
One-act play "Huis clos" ("Closed doors", 1943, Jean-Paul Sartre)


Keywords: Death: cemetery / funeral, Paris, Life: course (end) 
Tribute to: Sartre, Jean-Paul 
Dedicated to: Lotte W 

An assassin is
invisible or stands out --
because of his guise.
Een huurmoordenaar	Ein Auftragskiller
is onzichtbaar of valt op --	ist unsichtbar oder die --
door zijn vermomming.	Verkleidung fällt auf.

Poem S2666
Amsterdam, 2025-05-16
With a photo of Paul dressed up for carnival (January 25th, 2008, Amsterdam)


Keyword: Appearances 
Dedicated to: Lotte W, Madelief dK, Paul J 

Three generations:
a branch of the family --
tree, beautiful tree.
Drie generaties:	Ein Zweig des Stammbaums,
een takje van de stamboom --	drei Generationen:
mijn mooie stamboom.	wunderschöner Zweig.

Poem H5606
Amsterdam, 2025-06-16
With a photo of Madelief, Pieter, and Dory (three generations) under a tree on top of the hill (February 21st, 2003, Wolhusen)


Keywords: Nature: trees, forest, Family: relatives 

Solar wind Out of and into my body, my breath, open Receiving and emanating the sun, healing as a saint is whole in the truth of his experience a healed mind in a healthy body warm and warming Offering of flowing energy knowing its way and having no aim only only wishing to flow from you to me and from me to you where we are open

Poem 5668
Amsterdam, 2025-09-29
Saints are depicted with a ring of light (halo) around their heads, as a sign of divine energy
Holy = intact, healthy, whole [sanctus] >> Holiness [Sacredness], Holy (wo)man [Saint]
Keywords: Energy: flow, Reiki 

The garden changes,
I try and taste the new seeds --
the wind offers me.
De tuin verandert,	Das Gut ändert sich,
ik proef de nieuwe zaden --	ich schmecke neue Samen --
die de wind me brengt.	die der Wind mir bringt.

Poem H5987
Amsterdam, 2025-10-26
Keywords: Lifestream (go by), Nature: garden, park 
Dedicated to: Margot F 

The brain program When I go out, I do that in the park I approach you for a chat: so you're here on vacation and you think Amsterdam is a nice city? Quite different from home, yes, what you say I feel the same way, that's how it is It goes for everyone don't you think? You're young but I know that One has to experience it if possible, that's good people need it yes, really, that's how we are I hear it no differently Yes, from many countries I speak people, young and old and all of us have those thoughts and those wishes

Poem 5752
Amsterdam, 2025-12-14
Keywords: Brain: functioning, Humanity 

Abdomen My legs lie long like stakes attached to my heaving abdomen, lungs and heart are doing their work Below the swelling around my navel, things aren't going so well, my organs are well over halfway through their lifespan, as they say in a businesslike manner, well the decline is slow and apparently not just in the joints, my shoulders, back, and knees no, especially in the core of existence: the metabolism in my stomach the bladder intestines

Poem 5758
Amsterdam, 2025-12-15
Keyword: Body: decline 

Contact photo I have nothing evil in mind, just look I smile at you Not that broadly, no There, keep looking Out of curiosity about what I have to offer you with my onset of a smile, of connecting yes, from afar, but on the screen close by wherever you are And you're smiling back for years now, you've edited the old photos like that

Poem 5811
Amsterdam, 2026-01-09
Whether the holidays were nice or not - we always smile in the photos (Merlijn Schoonenboom) - 2026
Article "Of de feestdagen nou fijn waren of niet - op de foto's lachen we toch wel", in the NRC of January 8th, 2026
Keywords: Contact: beginning, Communication (digital) 
Tribute to: Schoonenboom, Merlijn 

Young wood archetype birch bare or green forest light of spring forest not really being forest wood young wood promise that became desire though you have to get on youth memories

Poem 1045
Amsterdam, 2017-02-19
Keyword: Spring 

Mummy look She waves to me: mummy look She plays in the grass, the earth is turning She shouts throughout summer and rains from white sand to black sand She is a little pig, gruntgrunt and one more time, one more time One two see sour sive singers she has, and dirty seet that climb everything: mummy look Her hands want to take everything feeling the whole grown-up life herself, caution, it is hot She drags my bag with her like a lady She likes sweet gruel and bread without crust, cheeks with peanut butter She cheers for the gnomes: mummy look who always come to help her at night when she sleeps

Poem 1674
Amsterdam, 2018-02-14
Keyword: Attention: attract 

Emperors on their
pedestals look over me --
into an old time.
Keizers op sokkels	Kaiser auf Sockeln
kijken ver over mij heen --	blicken über mich hinweg --
naar een oude tijd.	in alte Zeiten.

Poem H0174
Nijmegen, 2012-01-15
Keywords: Past, Honour / Fame 

In the morning we
open the day with the key --
What our life is for.
Morgens openen, 's	Morgens eröffnen
we de dag met de sleutel --	wir den Tag mit dem Schlüssel --
Waartoe wij bestaan.	Wozu wir da sind.

Poem H3687
Amsterdam, 2023-01-29
Morning prayer / Antroposophical Morning verse (Rudolf Steiner)
Catechism: Why are we here? To glorify God and enjoy him forever.
Keyword: Future: direction 
Tribute to: Steiner, Rudolf 

In heaven World citizens run around Busy parasites in the thin crust of earth kept at work by her and digested in her. She sweats decay from her pores, a delicious smell healthy to live in, but intoxicating: some think they are astronauts on spaceship Earth They race nearly 800,000 kilometers per hour along with the sun, spinning a pirouette at 1,670 kilometers per hour. Say them goodbye adieu, whatever that means wish them a pleasant journey to heaven and upon arrival the realization that they already were there

Poem 1055
Amsterdam, 2017-02-21
Adieu = à Dieu (vos comant) = to God (I recommend you)
Keyword: Mankind 

Mesocosmos The sky is blue and cold today as if the atmosphere is thinner and I can sense the void under which the houses are small and low, meaningless fleeting and interchangeable The old timber factory seems to be leaking On the right side of the base smoke rises from the building as if a reversed draught through the black chimney hole absorbs, from distant stars, seas of gigawatts of power for the city

Poem 157
Amsterdam, 2010-11-16
Jacob van Lennepkade, Amsterdam
Keywords: Earth: biosphere, Amsterdam 

The counting-house Drops of passion trickle down through the counting-house, it's time to live, but how? Shall I travel to a beautiful story and conquer that place? Shall I sail over the seas of feelings or fly over them and ponder where I want to land where there is a task for my wishes and create a space there which I do not yet know so that I arrive somewhere I didn't go to?

Poem 2211
Amsterdam, 2019-04-20
Keyword: Passion 

Clearly resounding
in me, my Temple of Joy:
the bells of life's pains.
In mij, mijn Tempel	Klartöne in mir,
van Vreugde klinken helder	meinem Tempel der Freude:
schalen levenspijn.	Schalen des Schmerzes.

Poem H2741
Amsterdam, 2020-06-20
Dule si (Temple of Solitary Joy, in Tianjin, dedicated to Guanyin, built in 984)
Keyword: Joy 
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 

Courage Everyone is brave, really because all people have a heart where friends and wishes live and secrets, and passions maybe not all four, but the rooms are never empty Hearts beat for their guests and the whole body exists to protect them with obliged courage This is an unknown secret that only a few do understand

Poem 1997
Amsterdam, 2018-12-16
Keyword: Courage 
Dedicated to: Ellen dM 

I watch the bubbles
in the water, the eggs cook --
they're dancing around.
Ik kook eieren,	Ich koche Eier,
luchtbellen in het water --	im Wasser immer mehr Luft-
om in te dansen.	blasen zum Tanzen.

Poem H3178
Amsterdam, 2022-01-20
Keyword: Life: energy 

I live what lives My mind has remained empty no voice, no inspirations nothing divine, just what was already there what I have found I peeled, viewed the persistent thoughts with which I was raised the many lies that bind me to a false image of who I am of us and the others as strangers of each other who I should fear and keep away with their customs, interesting perhaps, but uncomfortable Empty, I let the scents flow through me I can't hold them only experience them, I live what lives

Poem 4445
Amsterdam, 2022-04-06
The lies that bind (Kwame Anthony Appiah)
Book "The lies that bind -- Rethinking identity"
Keyword: Identity: environment 
Tribute to: Appiah, Kwame Anthony 

Only days The world is more beautiful if you have nothing to do with it I look around with other eyes, free from deeds, free from wanting to act, everything comes by itself to me, at my home I am happy with these hours after the timeless artificial light in the hospital Our actions are invisibly visible in the flow of life and my future has been solved in past, no more expectations no years ahead to count only days, a week Goodbye the city, the paths my shoes and my friends goodbye your hand

Poem 4459
Amsterdam, 2022-04-18
Keyword: Goodbye: dying / death 

With their breadcrumb hands
children taste the cake of sand --
with a little sea.
Met paneerhanden	Die Kinder kosten
proeven kinderen de taart --	den frischen Kuchen aus Sand --
van zand en wat zee.	und ein wenig Meer.

Poem H0352
Amsterdam, 2012-09-14
Keyword: Playing: learn