Thunder and rain
it's not a dawn yet

You blow little kisses in my ear
Wake up, I want to smell
in your blood

Touch me, turn around
kiss me, desire me
make me feel fine, let me shine
and fly and buzz
between velvet bumblebees

Let your little kissing mouths
float away from my skin
like velvet petals
to the sea of stars
let them fill the whole sky

My cabinet with books is in the street
for the taking, the chair next to it
One more moment I sit on it

thinking of obsolete dreams
and our new home, the beginning
of our own fairy-tale

our new dreams
of children running and spinning
around by the anchor

of our desire
tired in the evening, taking a bath
and sleeping in our hearts

When my friend comes
I don't have to do
anything to make things
happen, shamelessly

we are who we want to be
we let warm breaths
play with happiness
in our blood, and exchange

words for bites
of peace in our belly
- the small world
   of contentment

   in the big world
   of striving -
until we are satisfied
and stop laughing

It's a beautiful view, those two
just standing there
in the middle of the beach
in each other's embrace

like you always
are making contact
under my clothes

your desire
not growing old
always waving on

after the ebb
to be released
in bubbling breakers

And I want that too
but it doesn't go that easy
anymore, please wait

later may be
better, I love you
we have plenty of time now
there is no spring tide anymore

Light dances out from the club
It colours the wind
in my net curtain

The rain rustles and splashes
in the greasy gleam of the wet film
over the mud road through the village

A woman and a man appear
and play in their underwear
They push and slide

Mud on their skin, I watch
and undress in the dark
Where is my darling?

The click of the key
the shoes in the cabinet
the slight rustle in the toilet

and intimately the gleam
under the bathroom door, his smell
entering at my feet

I already know how
he slides towards me
carefully warming his hands

under his armpits
to caress me
from sleep to wonderful

and to make me stretch out
in a sea of time
where the wind rises

and hands and mouths
rush unstoppably
till the sky clears

And then
again

The wash turns and hums
It sounds content
No birds, quiet
as in a dream

You got up early, I know
how you unfold a shirt
pull it over and enjoy
the cool fabric

     I don't feel like
     getting dressed yet, wait
     at the kitchen counter

     until the tea is brewed
     then I fold your clothes
     very precisely and lay them
     in the closet. What shall I

     cook for you tonight
     and what shall I wear?
     First something warm
     to do the grocery shopping

Just going to bed alone
at midnight, it makes no sense
to warm his place for him
or to guess in recovery position
where he could be

At times I find an M
in a heart somewhere
with a smile
I put that note
in my yearbook

When I go peeing at night
I see him lie, being awake
enough to get confused
by the odour of his sleep
and then I have to wait

Take all the time in the morning
For love

Lie in you
let me lie in you
lie in your body
as long as we wish, as long
as we want to

Not loose, not apart
when I think of that
I fall
to pieces
in my own arms, afraid

to reach out my hand
in bed in the middle of the night
and wake up forever
without you, without your
eyes and mouth

Lost in the women's section
harmless smiling clumsy
I saw, wanted you

I let you cook for me
and wait after dinner
for a next time, love

is waiting and waiting
is being alive, you were confused
you wanted me

to pamper me, to cook for me
and you had fantasies, patiently
waiting, about a night

with me, love
that will last a lifetime
an adventure of differences

that make our hearts falter
with misunderstandings, but then
they relax again

The stars live
seen from my bed
very deep
inside the window frame

Nice and cool you lie next to me
sleeping satisfied
my skin burns
where I miss you

in this longhouse, where we
only dared to make love
restrainedly, not used
to hear it from others

The rain rustles
that warm pleasure
of the children and for us
if there had been no neighbours

who would be ashamed
so we did it quietly
like the lash mites
when they mate

Certainly, I can recognize
your belly
with which nobody else is familiar

and if you had no arms
no legs and if possible
also no belly anymore

you would still be exactly you
even without hair and ears
you would still have your faces

being enigmatically
and incomprehensibly
yourself, no matter how

I experience you
in admiration
with open senses

and in the curious amazement
of anyone who is taking notice
of you, then wishing to stay

I do hear you, but
there is a boundary
Why should I let you in
with your urgent desires?

First, show me
what you're worth and maybe
I'll give you a passport
And even then

first there is the waiting room
It is my life you know!
I won't be spun in
by the sticky silk

of your feelings
and it certainly wouldn't help you
to start nagging or tickling
You can't enforce love

The old library: full

of preserved books
hard-cover descriptions
of the world, obvious

as it once was, shelf after shelf
centuries and days, the times
have changed, people have not

I experience their fortunes, I
dream of it, and all the more
my hungry body reaches

out, to belong closely together
eye for an eye, arm for an arm
and laugh for a laugh

to smell and to feel, to enjoy
the warmth, to shiver from the cold
and sometimes to cry together with grief

in a full life

The giantess likes to eat
cake pans, crunchy
fishshells with fishink

cheese boards and cell goblets
gland sweat, salad Russians
peachicks and bean runners

she sniffs up sausage smoke
and krautsauer, munches
on fruit stones

takes tomatoes for desert
with white cheese goats
and always hungers

for Himmel und Erde

Undressed, my nakedness
bound in my skin
with sensually tight ropes

And a whizzing wind of arrows
to lick the blood away
from the resented beauty
they gaze at

the women with tears
the men mocking, boys
and girls curiously
excited

Nobody touches me
nobody feels the warmth
of my body
fleeing

Pull the heads out of my flesh
embrace my wounds with your hands
and take me, rouse life into me

Friendship is love
Working in a store also
but that is practical -
the cold side

A warm friendship is
unorganized love
(mutually convenient or not
as it suits)

to nourish each other
because you recognize yourself
in the image you have of the other
which you like to keep in your heart

a friend is familiar
a friend is peace
even if you grow apart
you still will love each other

Love is measurable
If you are an adult
it is a clear feeling

whether you get love or not:
do you grow, bloom and share?
It is a clear feeling

whether you give love or not:
do you perform good deeds?
It doesn't have to be personal

Do it for your favourite club
for the city where you live
or for all of humanity -

the attention and care
that you give also feed yourself
Intentions are not enough

nor are romantic fantasies:
imagined love is a sedation
that anaesthetizes your perception

reality is blurred -
even if it is nice, who can do it
day and night for a long time?

Because I feel that
we still love each other
at a distance, I dare

after the tour through the garden
the last honeysuckle smell and
drinking unclarified apple juice

together in the autumn sun
to ask you:
How are we

now, our love
how close are we still
heart to heart?

Would we, living in the same
house, also have gone
different paths?

In what spring will we
receive our children
after this winter?

You restrain your desire
for other women with wigs

and clothes that you give me
at home to unpack before dinner

restlessly pleased
with my hesitation

to pick up the game
that you have in your head

and to discover
who else I am

apart from your first love
that I still know well

from a past life full
of expectations and the happiness

to be with you, sure
to sleep safely with you

and I would like to know
if I am still her

and you the man I wanted
to marry, your eagerness

and sweet nice words
that have to come to sound like deceit

They mean well
but it is difficult

to be company
and even then I am alone

without you
tomorrow you may come

never home again
from the hospital

I have no peace
neighbours call in

between the visiting hours
they want to do something

and everyone asks answers
that reassure for another day

I am admired
I am strong, I have to

Who knows me? Surprised people don't
You know me, though often you don't

Don't leave me, don't
leave me, please don't

Since you sleep elsewhere, the sun is slumbering
High above us, it shines
less bright, less hot

It no longer devours me
after dawn, it doesn't even call me
awake, getting up takes me a lot of trouble

Only in the afternoon does my blood flow
from its light and does the sun carry
the weight of my worries

Then my heart can fly
like a dragon, if necessary I get lost
forever in heaven

and I'll stay with the sun, the sun
that oversees everything, knows everything
and warms everything

You look so sweet at me
I don't have to dream about it
that you love me

but the romantic heart
in my head is afraid and
wants the best, lifelong

happiness, the greatest imaginable
in short, love, the eternal
always praised love

that you don't see around you
because, you know, people in love
can hardly live

without each other in their minds
but I want to be mature and
restart our relationship

after every crisis, or not
and always cherish what we have
experienced, what nobody else has

taken part in

Without the outside world, my house
is everything, less and less a home
Short walks, for the rest
we stay inside
when we go out

with a video call
a nicely set table
a borrowed book, movies
always in the same chair
and a neighbour visiting

Lots of time together
but he has a hobby and I don't
come around to anything
It's boring, life
does not flow in me

In bed I share him
with silence and sleep
no radio, no talking
just his warmth next to me
while I lie awake

We'll naturally kiss
and caress when that scent
or that one song is there

Your love is sweet, our life is good

We hang streamers
where we know each other
and keep exploring

Your love endures, our life is sweet

We don't need French kisses
we just caress each other's backs
if possible under the shirts

Your kisses are sweet, our life is good

Our fingertips find
their way, skin to skin
They hang streamers

The dogs left the town, away
from the barbed wire rolls
in the streets, I walk crooked
with my nose above
their trail to freedom
and the danger of their teeth

I can do it if you, will you
are you coming too, barefoot
in peace, our love all night
guarded by the dogs
and your belly pregnant
of future?

I lie awake, listen
whether you come
I hear the neighbours
utter cries of pleasure
and desire for each other
the desire for more
the desire for eternal happiness

You deserve love, I know you
you deserve it, look for it
with someone else, play for high stakes
#partyeveryday

And stay, stay with me
Come lie with me
on the couch and watch
a movie with me

That's what it's about
our daily happiness
not about you, not about me
separately, but touched

It's good and allowed
Come, you are the most beautiful
maybe
because I love you

Whatever I say
on nodays, those words
are doubt talk, they cry out
that I want a YesDay

No matter how good it is
as it is, still I long
to feel and make it feel
that we are intimate friends

My soul has tender skin
when we physically feel
the love we feel
and the fierce passion

we smile together with it
My skin has hands
for intimacy, for you
tight against me

fingertips for
gently sparing
the delicate spots
and heartfelt contentment

Love and friendship
are sometimes laborious
There is no connection
You are too early or too late
You don't match up

But in the scraping
when passing
there is contact and you stay
connected, mutually
a piece

of the world that just continues
There is attention
which you need, even
if it is lost upon you
Because you want to know for sure

you want to feel
and cherish
that the love
the friendship
is real

On vacation it is different
Then you are the man
I saw in you

then we do everything together
then we look together
viewed as together -

the outside of it
our two bodies
which are curiously scanned

through our clothes
We see it happen
and we see ourselves

as desirable persons
with fondle skin and lips
that laugh and whisper sweetly

I imagine it while
I wait for the kettle
Let's go on vacation

There is a lot I can no longer
do spontaneously
I touch myself with caution
and rather let you look

than act, but sometimes
the tingling of your
caress arouses unfulfillable needs
deeper and deeper in me

They are sleeping
in my cells, still
desiring to jump you
but your hands ward me off

as a precaution, so sensitive
are our skin and our bones
so painful it can be
to wish to be young

To be touched
I have to
be seen and heard

speak sweet words
with a smile
Ever sweeter words

But you
give me perfume, a fishnet dress
and black-red lingerie

You like to explore
me as new
with pinches and kisses

the hard in the weak
curious about my cuddliness
and the little sounds I will sigh

You have so little patience
and pay me little
attention

The calm in your eyes
on me opens me
You lie in me
like a long l
of love

The light has licked you clean
it sings of you the glorious song
of our years, which bridge
everything that separates us
and clothes us in differences

For us, love is
still a thick word
of desire, the l
that erects
when I undress

Being in love, with a smile, not blind
to our differences, the life that lies
behind us and the preferences

that, with the fortunate lack
of temerity, are difficult to convince
of the taste and wisdom of others
- heard very, very benevolently
and without indulgence, found
charming, yes, longing for more
content and more togetherness

in the phase that lies ahead, our choices
to be joined softly and smoothly
in shared open spaces

Your eyes look, look
at me, they count
my freckles, gauge
my mood and drown
drown in me, in me

Your eyes cuddle, crumple
my hair, they kiss my lips
nestle against me and
long, long for me
you long for me

I'm only here a while
but I did see you
I didn't scorn your love
even though I have to go
and the world keeps turning

It will pick you up again
with this song, that I give you
my song about your eyes
I've seen them
don't wait for me

We do cartwheels
the bystanders call
for more, but my stomach
turns and the ceiling
turns too

Her face turns pale
I embrace her from behind
we dive into the depths
I feel dizzy, with a thud
I feel that there is a bottom

and then she swims away
Why are you going now?
For no reason, she smiles
at me with a sad look
Isn't it obvious?

I close my eyes
and watch her go, forever
a virgin to me, forever
her transparent face
fading in the light

So far away from me
Having no rest to be at home
you want to go out into the world
and your work is the cloak
in which you travel

Everywhere, too little with me
you have a home for a while
and less and less a place
where you want to stay

even though everything
you need is there, here
with me, together with me
not somewhere far away

where you have a pleasant time
and success in prosperous cities
a happy life
but not the dream that
you can fulfil with me

Alone in bed, that's not so bad
but I miss you, I want you
feel you, kiss you
Not just in my dreams

It doesn't help that I'm constantly
checking my phone
You don't call me
you don't think of me

And then my mother calls
Are you alright?
Will you come tomorrow?
That would be nice

When I go outside
for a while and hum
people look at me
with furtive concern

I'm alone too often
My head is full of it
It could run empty, and then
I won't miss you anymore

There's always a way
to do it differently
and come home
Not in your mind, but
running, on the wind
on electricity, or kerosene
I dream you towards me

You come in hiking boots
by bike, on a sled
or from liane to liane
You cross the mountains
the seas, and all borders
to come to me
to be with me

I dream you towards me
on skis, a surfboard
a magic carpet
or in a basket
under a big pink balloon
There's always a way
but you should do it soon

You're on my radar
your signal is on its way
The wheels are spinning towards me
I'm in your mind
and you're in mine

The road is clear, you are fast
you felt my longing
That's our bond
our love radar
It's always on

So Far Away in your ears
then Miss You and
Get Here after the exit
that's how you drive out of the night
You breathe easier now

are almost home, almost back
in my arms, you appear
life-size on my radar
Your love, our love
in our arms