It goes up and down for me
I embrace life and let it go

because it has no future
I crossed off impossibilities
and little concrete remained

But love
For myself, my desire
to live, the people

around me, yes, even for
time and again, their clumsiness

And I don't want to miss any of it
Except when I feel a little better
and get annoyed again

at road users and so on
who act substandard, which is
an unnecessary impoverishment

Yes, it goes up and down
for me, since I have cancer