We shake hands, finally
I am off the waiting list
and out of my own waiting room -
with someone who, just like mama
listens to me

to help me to know what helps me
what may work for me, someone who
will shout Action! and Stop!
from time to time, so that I get out
of the path in the vicious cycle

which I know better than I
would like, and even though
I have to get my body
with its afflictions moving
with too little energy

I still want to trust that
I can do it, can and will
have to do it myself, and
that I will find a place
where I'm not on the side