Zywa Helplessness

Brotherly love has a knife
in its hand, sometimes it stabs
others, more often it stabs you

with disappointment, with
angrily walking away and leaving
you in emptiness, searching

in vain for traces
you've long since
trampled on

So I must wait
Wait to see if you will
ever turn to me again

After postponement after
postponement, I dare
to mail a letter to you

full of helplessness
to bridge the distance
without your response

Poem 5766
Amsterdam, 2025-12-16
Four poems by Frida Vogels
Italian proverb: 'Amore di fratello, amore col coltello' (Brotherly love, love with a knife), mentioned in the autobiography "In den vreemde - Kronieken" (2024, Frida Vogels, chapter 'Kees en ik' - March 11th, 1983, Bologna)
September 7th, 1964
- I rarely can get out and look for you
September 8th, 1964
- While you're wandering around defenceless somewhere
June 22nd, 1965
- I can't write like I speak
January 11th, 1966
- The horrors of that day

Collection: Self-portraits
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida 
 

Now we live apart,

maybe one day we'll look back --


on it together.


We leven apart,Wir leben getrennt,
misschien kijken we er ooit --vielleicht blicken wir je zu --

samen op terug.zweit darauf zurück.

Poem H5732
Amsterdam, 2025-07-24
We couldn't do it (Frida Vogels) - 1994
Poem "Wij hebben het niet gekund", published in the collection "De harde kern 3" ("The hard core 3", part VI [Kees], and in "Diary 1962-1963" (2007) - February 13th, 1963, Bologna
Collection: Beyond the Cape
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida 
 

His brotherly love

carries a knife, in my life --


nothing may go wrong.


Zijn broederliefdeMein Bruder trägt ein
draagt een mes, in mijn leven --Messer, in meinem Leben --

mag er niks misgaan.darf nichts schiefgehen.

Poem S2755
Amsterdam, 2025-07-07
In foreign parts - Chronicles (Frida Vogels) - 2024
Autobiography "In den vreemde - Kronieken", chapter 'Kees en ik' ('Neil and I') - March 11th, 1983, Bologna (about her relationship with Kees and the breakup on February 15th, 1983 in Amsterdam) - 'Amore di fratello, amore col coltello'
Collection: Helices
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida 
 

Together we went

further than we intended:


beyond our friendship.


Samen gingen weWir gingen weiter als
verder dan we bedoelden:wir gewollt hatten, über --

de vriendschap voorbij.die Freundschaft hinaus.

Poem S0573
Amsterdam, 2017-12-01
You're my enemy, aren't you? - Turned bitter (Frida Vogels) - 1994
Verse "Je bent mijn vijand, is 't niet? - Bitter geworden", published in the collection "De harde kern 3" ("The hard core 3" [part VI, Kees], and in "Diary 1966-1967" (2009) - February 20th, 1966, Bologna
Collection: Self-portraits
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida 
 

Once again we walk

by the sea, as yet looking --


so expectantly.


We lopen weer langsWieder gehen wir
de zee en we kijken nog --am Meer entlang, sind immer --

steeds vol verwachting.noch erwartungsvoll.

Poem H1789
Amsterdam, 2017-09-06
I walk beside you again (Frida Vogels) - 1994
Poem "Ik loop weer naast je”, published in "De harde kern 3" ("The hard core", 1994), and in "Diary 1958-1959" (2006) - May 19th, 1958, Luxemburg (about the beach walk near Bergen with Kees, on May 17th, 1958)
Collection: Beyond the Cape
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida 
 

Once again we walk

in the old track, we're absent --


There is no meeting.


Opnieuw lopen weWieder gehen wir
in een oud spoor, afwezig --den alten Spur, abwesend --

Zonder ontmoeting.Ohne Begegnung.

Poem S0526
Amsterdam, 2017-09-06
I walk beside you again (Frida Vogels) - 1994
Poem "Ik loop weer naast je”, published in "De harde kern 3" ("The hard core", 1994), and in "Diary 1958-1959" (2006) - May 19th, 1958, Luxemburg (about the beach walk near Bergen with Kees, on May 17th, 1958)
Collection: Beyond the Cape
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida 
 

Family needs to

be lovely: each other's crown


witness, a party!


Familie moet mooiFamilie soll schön
zijn: allemaal elkaars kroon-sein: von einander der Kron-

getuige, een feest!zeuge, ein Feier!

Poem H1626
Amsterdam, 2016-12-21
Family (Else-Marie van den Eerenbeemt) - 2016
Column "Geef je familie nog één kans" ("Give your family one more chance", 2016, Ellen de Bruin, with a quote from Else-Marie van den Eerenbeemt), in the nrc.next of December 21st, 2016
Collection: Wean Di
Tribute to: Van Den Eerenbeemt, E-M. 
 

Since father is dead,

we're closer to each other --


family indeed.


Sinds vader dood is,Vater starb, seitdem
zijn wij hechter met elkaar --sind wir uns näher, ja, doch --

toch een familie.eine Familie.

Poem H1565
Amsterdam, 2016-10-22
Collection: The King
 

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