Zywa Between daring and fear

I leap into the depths
and don't fall, in a spiral
I float gently, carried
by a wave

of thoughts, between
heaven and earth, between
daring and fear, between
mescaline and awakening

Scenes from my life
light up as if I were flying
from time to time, place to place
and being who I was there

relaxed
one with myself
under a cloud
of later knowledge

Poem 5866
Amsterdam, 2026-02-08
Spiral waves (Torstein Lavik Larsen en Fredrik Rasten) - 2026
Sequel to this poem: 5868. Between past and future
Composition "Heliacal Waves" (duo "Pip"), performed on February 7th, 2026 at the 4th Echonance Festival in the Organpark, titled "Aural Cartographies", by Torstein Lavik Larsen (trumpet, organ), Fredrik Rasten (guitar, organ), Elisabeth Smalt (viola), Seamus Cater (concertina [predecessor of the bandoneon]), Reinier van Houdt (organ), Claudio Baroni (organ), and Lucie Nezri (organ)
Lines 1 through 8: the first part of the three-part composition
Lines 9 through 16: the second part of the three-part composition
Carlos Castaneda (Cajamarca 1925-1998, lucid dreaming)

Collection: org anp ARK 
Composers: Larsen, Torstein Lavik; Rasten, Fredrik 
 

Zywa Also if there is no explanation

Is a fortieth birthday a divide
like this mountain ridge here

where the landscape is the same
left and right, but the rain flows
to other seas?

Past here, future there
and the understanding
that what follows will be less

beautiful than you once thought
though this doesn't cause the founding
of a Party Against Sorrow

It's enough to not appropriate
worries, to be as cautious as a snake
and to look honestly in the mirror

That way, even after Halfway Station
you'll remain upright, like a tumbler

Poem 5671
Amsterdam, 2025-10-05
Watershed (drainage divide)
The first of the four cardinal virtues is: Prudentia (Prudence) - Matthew 10:16 Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves - The mirror is the symbol of self-knowledge, later also of the past and future
The other three cardinal virtues are: Iustitita (Righteousness), Fortitudo (Strength), and Temperantia (Temperance)

Collection: The Yellow House Museum
 

Oops, when I draw up

the balance sheet of my work --


I miscalculate.


Bij het opstellenAch, wenn ich meine
van de balans van mijn werk --Arbeitsbilanz erstelle --

vertel ik me steeds.verrechne ich mich.

Poem H5803
Amsterdam, 2025-08-08
To stand surety (Frida Vogels) - 1994
Poem "Borg staan", published in the collection "De harde kern 3" ("The hard core 3", part VIII [Authorship], and in "Diary 1966-1967" (2009) - November 17th, 1967, Bologna
Collection: Between us
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida 
 

Zywa The mountain of my life

Books and photos on paper
are a fine way of preserving
and keeping my life complete -

who I have become
from my youth up, memories
of my family, images

of their presence
their activities and the places
that belong to it, all together

a constantly growing mountain
with hair-thin dendrites:
the mountain of my life

Poem 5659
Amsterdam, 2025-07-19
With a photo and poetry book for Madelief on the occasion of her 26th birthday, with a photo of the Rigi on the cover, seen from Walchwil, and finely branched trees in the foreground (February 9th, 2008)

Rigi

Collection: Take a picture, now
Dedicated to: Madelief dK 
 

Mama and Daddy

are fighting, our life was meant --


to be different.


Mama en papaMama und Papa
maken ruzie, ons leven --streiten sich, unser Leben --

was anders bedoeld.war anders gedacht.

Poem H5357
Amsterdam, 2025-04-09
The darkness that separates us (Renate Dorrestein) - 2003
Novel "Het duister dat ons scheidt", part 1, 'Zes' ('Six' years old), chapter 'A is een aardbei' ('A is an aardbei [strawberry]')
Collection: Take a picture, now
Tribute to: Dorrestein, Renate 
 

The moon reflected,

flowers floating in the wind:


such are human lives.


De maan weerspiegeld,Der Mond gespiegelt
een bloem zwevend in de wind:eine verwehte Blume:

een mensenleven.ein Menschenleben.

Poem H5249
Amsterdam, 2025-02-11
I was born into this world (Gizan Zenrai) - 1878
Poem by the Zen-monk Gizan Zenrai (1801-1878), included in the 1986 collection "Japanese Death Poems", compiled by Yoel Hoffmann: I was born into this world / I leave it at my death. / Into a thousand towns / My legs have carried me, / And countless homes - / What are all these? / A moon reflected in the water / A flower floating in the sky / Ho!
Collection: Thinkles Lusionless
Tribute to: Gizan, Zenrai 
 

Your mother's body:

you look like her, you can see --


what you will be like.


Je moeders lichaam:Der Körper deiner,
je lijkt op haar, je kunt zien --Mutter: du kannst sehen wie --

hoe je zelf zult zijn.du jemals sein wirst.

Poem H5199
Amsterdam, 2025-01-24
The Coming of Age (Simone de Beauvoir) - 1970
Essay "La vieillesse", page 7, cited in the essay "Laat me niet alleen" ("Don't leave me alone", 2008, Renate Dorrestein), chapter "Step Six: Let's face our fears"
Collection: Thinkles Lusionless
Tribute to: Dorrestein, Renate; De Beauvoir, Simone 
 

I know my life through

the elders and the children --


They are teaching me.


Ik ken mijn leven,Alten und Kinder,
ouderen en kinderen --sie lehren mich zu sehen --

leren het aan mij.was mein Leben ist.

Poem H5196
Amsterdam, 2025-01-23
Don't leave me alone (Renate Dorrestein) - 2008
Essay "Laat me niet alleen", chapter "Step Four: Let's stop for a moment and consider cross-generational relationships and their intrinsic value in Western civilization"
Collection: Thinkles Lusionless
Tribute to: Dorrestein, Renate 
 

Around what centre,

in ever wider circles --


do I fly, blow, sing?


Om welk middelpunt,Um welchen Kern, in
in steeds wijdere kringen --wachsenden Kreisen, fliehe --

vlieg, waai of zing ik?wehe, singe ich?

Poem H4852
Amsterdam, 2024-08-15
Above the gods (Rainer Maria Rilke) - 1899
Poem "Ich lebe mein Leben" (collection "Das Buch vom mönchischen Leben")
Collection: On the fly
Tribute to: Rilke, Rainer Maria 
 

You'll live long enough

to celebrate successes --


and suffer failures.


Je zult lang genoegDu wirst lang genug
leven: successen vieren --leben: Erfolge feiern --

en ten onder gaan.und untergehen.

Poem H4681
Amsterdam, 2024-06-07
Victory City (Salman Rushdie) - 2023
Novel "Victory City" [Vijayanagar >> Bisnaga, based on Fatehpur Sikri ('Victory City', near Agra), the capital of Emperor Abdul-Fath Jalaluddin 'Akbar' (= 'the Great' >> 'Akbar the Great')], part 1 Birth, chapter 1
Collection: Wind
Tribute to: Rushdie, Salman 
 

To reconcile us

I sing appropriate words --


The old well-known song.


Ter verzoening zingZur Versöhnung sing
ik de woorden die passen --ich die passenden Worte --

Het bekende lied.Das bekannte Lied.

Poem H4530
Amsterdam, 2024-02-22
The Golden House (Salman Rushdie)
Bird on the Wire (Leonard Cohen) - 1968

Song about Leonard Cohen and Marianne Jensen, 1969 album "Songs from a Room"; 1968 release by Judy Collins (album "Who Knows Where the Time Goes")
Novel "The Golden House" (2017, Salman Rushdie), chapter (3-) 34

Collection: Shadows
Tribute to: Cohen, Leonard; Rushdie, Salman 
 

Forgive me, I won't

demand so much anymore --


and then receive more.


Vergeef me, ik zalVerzeih, ich werde
niet meer zoveel verlangen --mir nicht mehr so viel wünschen --

en meer ontvangen.und mehr empfangen.

Poem H4531
Amsterdam, 2024-02-22
Bird on the Wire (Leonard Cohen) - 1968
Song about Leonard Cohen and Marianne Jensen, 1969 album "Songs from a Room"; 1968 release by Judy Collins (album "Who Knows Where the Time Goes")
Collection: Known
Tribute to: Cohen, Leonard 
 

The tension is gone:

it's important, or it's not --


and now it comes out.


De spanning is weg:Die Spannung ist weg:
het is belangrijk, of niet --es ist wichtig, oder nicht --

en nu komt dat uit.und jetzt zeigt sich das.

Poem H4375
Amsterdam, 2023-12-18
Perfect silence (Thomas Verbogt) - 2011
Novel "Perfecte stilte", chapter A contrived thought
Collection: Thinkles Lusionless
Tribute to: Verbogt, Thomas 
 

I just stopped writing

that diary of mine since --


it is never true.


Ik ben maar gestoptIch schreibe nicht mehr
met dat dagboekschrift van mij --in mein Tagebuch, weil es --

want het klopt toch nooit.sowieso nie stimmt.

Poem H4364
Amsterdam, 2023-12-13
Big Eight (Vrouwkje Tuinman) - 2005
Novel "Grote acht" (route of two circles in dressage), chapter [*] #12
Collection: Held True
Tribute to: Tuinman, Vrouwkje 
 

I just see fragments

of my life, only too late --


I understand them.


Ik zie mijn levenIch seh mein Leben
in fragmenten, en te laat --in Stücken, und erst zu spät --

begrijp ik die pas.verstehe ich sie.

Poem H4313
Amsterdam, 2023-11-28
Midnight's Children (Salman Rushdie) - 1981
Novel, chapter 1-8 "Tick, tock"
Collection: Shadows
Tribute to: Rushdie, Salman 
 

Look at the people

around me to understand --


the course of my life.


Let op de mensenDurch die Menschen um
om mij heen, dan begrijp je --mich herum verstehst du mein --

iets van mijn leven.Leben ein wenig.

Poem H4314
Amsterdam, 2023-11-28
Midnight's Children (Salman Rushdie) - 1981
Novel, chapter 1-8 "Tick, tock"
Collection: Shadows
Tribute to: Rushdie, Salman 
 

It didn't count for much,

I know in hindsight, thanks to --


my account of it.


Het stelde niets voor,Es war nichts, weiß ich,
weet ik achteraf, dankzij --im Nachhinein, dank meiner --

mijn verslag ervan.Darstellung davon.

Poem H4251
Amsterdam, 2023-10-25
On the Road (Jack Kerouac) - 1951
Book "On the Road" - "The Original Scroll", about his activities in 1947-1950, published in 1957/2007, chapter Book One
Collection: MistI
Tribute to: Kerouac, Jack 
 

The icy climbing

rope around my hardened heart --


between icicles.


Het beijzeldeDas eisige Seil
touw om mijn geharde hart --um mein verhärtetes Herz --

tussen de pegels.zwischen den Zapfen.

Poem S1825
Amsterdam, 2023-07-22
A thousand meters (Antonia Pozzi) - 1937
Poem "Mille metri", written to Emilio Comici on September 20th, 1937
"alla tua fune gelida avvolto - ed il tuo duro cuore tra le pallide guglie"

Collection: Blankets of snow
Tribute to: Pozzi, Antonia 
 

The years fly by fast,

so the better you can see --


what the changes are.


De jaren gaan snel,Jahre vergehen
des te beter kun je zien --schnell, desto besser sieht man --

wat er verandert.die Änderungen.

Poem H3886
Amsterdam, 2023-06-26
The meteorologist (Lars Gustafsson) - 1966
Poem "Meteorologen" (collection "En resa till jordens medelpunkt och andra dikter")
Collection: Specialities
Tribute to: Gustafsson, Lars 
 

Life passes quickly,

I hear the wasted time bark --


like dogs in the night.


Het leven is kort,Das Leben ist kurz,
ik hoor de verspilde tijd --hört die verschwendete Zeit --

blaffen als een hond.bellen wie ein Hund.

Poem H3865
Amsterdam, 2023-06-20
but think no longer, think - 2 (Hans Lodeizen) - 1949
Poem "maar denk niet langer, denk - 2" (published in "De vrije bladen" ["The free papers"], 1949, volume 20, book 5)
Collection: Moist glow
Tribute to: Lodeizen, Hans 
 

Zywa The people in their houses

Daydreaming in the tower
of concrete, manning
the office, that's not too bad
on a sunny day

I just have to point
my nose out, count
the chimneys, and I don't
have to pay attention to clouds

Nobody comes
only me, in the morning
with a packed lunch
and a clean mind

for new ideas
about the people in the houses
below me, I know a few
who show themselves sometimes

Poem 4042
Amsterdam, 2021-10-21
Office in a Small City (Edward Hopper) - 1953
Painting
Collection: NightWatch
Tribute to: Hopper, Edward 
 

Moments are tatters,

preserved by me in series --


making up my life.


Momenten: flarden,Momente: Fetzen,
door mij bewaard in reeksen --von mir in Serien bewahrt --

vormen mijn leven.bilden mein Leben.

Poem H2766
Amsterdam, 2020-08-17
Collection: Migration
 

Zywa Where the sun is quiet

On the back of the beast
I struggle My Struggle
thrown around in myself
by an eternal storm

I laugh me strong
and love myself enough
to be willing to change
but it is tiring

to start over and over again
Just kidding! I already know who I am
I can explain everything
including why
I like to be out of balance
within my limits

The parties are elsewhere
and heaven does not exist
but I'm safe
not bored

the bees buzz
life whistles
idiosyncratically
through the cracks

Poem 2923
Amsterdam, 2020-04-15
Collection: Lilith's Powers
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 
 

A suspension is

good for you: again you see --


what is important.


Een schorsing is goedSuspendierung ist
voor iedereen: je ziet weer --gut für dich: du siehst wieder --

wat belangrijk is.worauf es ankommt.

Poem H2661
Train Best-Amsterdam, 2020-01-13
Everything changes (Kristien Hemmerechts) - 2015
Novel "Alles verandert", chapter 10
Collection: Known
Tribute to: Hemmerechts, Kristien 
 

One word is enough

for any biography:


war / money / music


Eén woord is genoegEcht, ein Wort reicht aus
voor elke biografie:für jede Biographie:

oorlog / geld / muziekKrieg / Geld / Musik / Sport

Poem H2504
Amsterdam, 2019-06-10
Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close (Jonathan Safran Foer) - 2005
Novel, pages 171-172
Collection: Specialities
Tribute to: Safran Foer, Jonathan 
 

Only later do

I know how I want events --


to be started off.


Pas later weet ikErst später weiß ich,
hoe ik gebeurtenissen wil --wie diese Ereignisse --

laten beginnen.beginnen sollen.

Poem H2303
Amsterdam, 2018-10-08
How everything had to begin (Thomas Verbogt) - 2017
Novel "Hoe alles moest beginnen"
Collection: Willegos
Tribute to: Verbogt, Thomas 
 

I must be chosen,

just have a look at my life:


pain and misfortune.


Mijn uitverkiezingIch bin auserwählt,
lees ik af aan mijn leven:schau dir nur mein Leben an:

pech en tegenspoed.Pech und Missgeschick.

Poem S0800
Amsterdam, 2018-10-02
A happy smile (Andreas Burnier) - 1965
Novel "Een tevreden lach", chapter 'IJs' (Ice)
Collection: Unseen
Tribute to: Burnier, Andreas 
 

You know my life and

with all your experience --


you show it to me.


Jij kent mijn levenDu kennst mein Leben
en met al jouw ervaring --und mit deiner Erfahrung --

laat je het mij zien.zeigst du es mir vor.

Poem H1907
Amsterdam, 2017-12-17
Collection: NightWatch
Dedicated to: Ineke J 
 

Twenty-one years old!

As an adult, I look back:


Now my life begins!


Eenentwintig jaar!Einundzwanzig, ich
Volwassen kijk ik terug:blicke zurück, erwachsen:

Mijn leven begint!Mein Leben beginnt!

Poem S0582
Amsterdam, 2017-12-04
The hard core - 2 (Frida Vogels) - 1993
Autobiographical account "De harde kern" (2) - May 1951, Amsterdam
Collection: ThereFrom
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida 
 

We're still in our place,

comfortably talking and --


tasting our failure.


We zitten er nogWir unterhalten
en praten wat na, proeven --uns, genießen gemeinsam --

onze mislukking.unser Versagen.

Poem S0485
Amsterdam, 2017-06-13
We talked to each other (Frida Vogels) - 1994
Poem "Wij spraken met elkaar", published in the collection "De harde kern 3" ("The hard core 3" [part IX, Marriage], and in "Diary 1970-1971" (2011) - June 13th, 1971, Bologna
Conversation with friends, in Amsterdam

Collection: Lookout
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida 
 

Zywa Sharazed (1)

My diary is too honest
to keep, what's the sense

in reading myself unhappy
and puzzling my head off
over covered terms, peering

what yet can be seen
through the frosted glass, shadows
which I trace with clear lines

of later. It easily looks
like real, a few lines are enough
for a snowy landscape

that I can make thaw
by continuing to draw:
another page, another day

written to my life
blossoms written
on my path full of thorns

in the ghost house
of my body

Poem 1297
Amsterdam, 2017-04-23
Collection: Dearme
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk 
 

Zywa The great events

Life has to last
because the great things happen
in your youth and it takes years

to process them
and then you'll want to redo
this or that

with later knowledge
or experience it anew
because too often

it can be done better
With more attention you could
have enjoyed it more

could have been living like now
but would you be young then
or an old soul in disguise

in a restless body
on expedition
to great events

that will matter
a lifetime?

Poem 1230
Amsterdam, 2017-03-19
Collection: The Yellow House Museum
 

Zywa Everything is fine on board

You know it:
taxiing, the run-up
and off, into the clouds

with the vortexes
The most natural thing
in the world nowadays

Right then I am prepared
to die, overlooking
the summary of life

beneath me, slowly
erased by the white clouds
to a blue celestial

void with a strobe light at the end
of the thin wing
signalling:

people alive here
everything is fine on board
we just fly by

Poem 1092
Amsterdam, 2017-02-28
Collection: Migration
 

Zywa Sand pendulum

To sustaining tones, the material
world draws a trail in smooth loops
from a bottle hanging askew
on its navel string and running

empty over the blue rug
of awareness
of all who are there
A pendulum thought

More and more light shines
through the bottle and the wind
in our senses
wipes out the patterns

we have repeated
into a magical eight
of insight into the infinite
course of our lives

Poem 953
Amsterdam, 2017-01-14
Concert "Le monde à l'envers" with a harmonograph (Lissajous figures; Foucault pendulum) in the Organpark, on shakuhachi (Harrie Starreveld) and organ (Johan Luijmes), performed on January 14th, 2017
Collection: ORG anp ark 
 

Travelling in all

my memories I'm searching --


where I am going.


Op reis in al mijnUnter all meinen
herinneringen zoek ik --Erinnerungen such ich --

waar ik naartoe ga.wohin ich gehe.

Poem H1592
Amsterdam, 2016-11-10
Sir Oliver and A Bomble-thing (Marten Toonder) - 1983
Comic strip #173 - Heer Ollie en Een Bommelding (tiers 1335-1336 en 1342-1410), tier 1359
Collection: Puss & Lord
Tribute to: Toonder, Marten 
 

On the pier, you see

ships navigate in and out --


or just passing by.


Op de pier zie jeAuf dem Pier sieht man
schepen in en uit varen --Schiffe ein- und auslaufen --

of voorbij varen.oder passieren.

Poem H1569
Amsterdam, 2016-10-24
Maritime Ode (Álvaro de Campos) - 1915
Poem "Ode marítima" (Fernando Pessoa)
Collection: On the fly
Tribute to: De Campos, Alvaro; Pessoa, Fernando 
 

Apartment building:

variations of people --


Kisses and quarrels.


Daar, onder de flat:Unter dem Wohnhaus:
variaties van mensen --Mensch-Variationen --

Kussen en ruzies.Küsse und Streite.

Poem H1110
Amsterdam, 2015-01-28
My struggle 5. Some Rain Must Fall (Karl Ove Knausgård) - 2010
Autobiographical novel "Min Kamp. Femte bok", part 6 - 1989, Bergen
Collection: Leaving
Tribute to: Knausgård, Karl Ove 
 

I have learned that life

really is way too bad, when --


you think about it.


Ik leerde: levenIch habe gelernt:
is werkelijk waar te erg --das Leben ist schrecklich, wenn --

om bij stil te staan.man drüber nachdenkt.

Poem H0663
Amsterdam, 2014-01-18
The evening in Central Park, New York - 3 (Hans Lodeizen) - 1949
Poem "De avond in Central Park, New York" - 3 (published in "De vrije bladen" ["The free papers"], 1949, volume 20, book 5)
Collection: Moist glow
Tribute to: Lodeizen, Hans 
 

I'm getting old and

can see me ever clearer --


as who I have been.


Ik word oud en zieIch werde alt und
mijzelf steeds duidelijker --sehe mich immer klarer --

als wie ik ooit was.als wer ich je war.

Poem H0575
Amsterdam, 2013-09-27
Health Care Centre of Our Lady
Collection: Migration
 

Giraffes
see over earthly life
Giraffes
I too create distance

I have an overview:
I react unprejudiced
I react understandingly
I react considerately
n234    n215    n299    n305
Geit, Schaap, Lam
 

Seers
have an overview
Seers
I too look at the whole

I take a distance to oversee my situation:
I pay attention to all the facts
I see connections
I see what possibilities there are
 

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