My own right started
underground, resisting
the parental authority
it bit its teeth
into itself

Théir religious own right also
started underground, resisting
the established authority
it bit its teeth
into itself
and into followers

it fantasized
over later and practised
violence

so that I must remain silent
underground, powerless
I hold on
to understanding
what is not allowed
to be said

I fantasize
over the past and football
without a ball