| After the great flood, | |
| people hunt for large shadows: | |
| the fish of the past. | |
| Na de grote vloed | Nach der großen Flut |
| jaagt men op grote schimmen: | jagt man die großen Schatten: |
| vissen van vroeger. | Fische von früher. |
Amsterdam, 2025-12-17
Angel's Egg (Mamoru Oshii) - 1985
Video-animation film "Tenshi no Tamago"
Collection: Plasma
Tribute to: Oshii, Mamoru
| An old sore still smarts | |
| badly from everything that -- | |
| ever touches it. | |
| De pijn van oud zeer | Alter Schmerz brennt |
| schrijnt ondraaglijk van alles -- | unerträglich bei allem -- |
| dat er ooit aan raakt. | was ihn je berührt. |
Amsterdam, 2025-10-07
Panorama West (Wanda Bommer) - 2011
Novel, part 2, Juttersbitter (Looter's Bitters)
Collection: Plasma
Tribute to: Bommer, Wanda
| Betrayal against | |
| a child or a teen remains -- | |
| a sensitive wound. | |
| Verraad, ooit gepleegd | Verrat, begangen |
| jegens een kind of tiener -- | an einem Kind, bleibt eine -- |
| blijft een open wond. | offene Wunde. |
Amsterdam, 2025-10-07
Panorama West (Wanda Bommer) - 2011
Novel, part 2, Juttersbitter (Looter's Bitters)
Collection: Plasma
Tribute to: Bommer, Wanda
| The castle seems strong, | |
| but old spirits are wriggling -- | |
| out of the brickwork. | |
| Het kasteel lijkt sterk, | Die Burg wirkt stark, doch |
| maar oude geesten woelen -- | alte Geister wühlen sich -- |
| zich uit de stenen. | aus dem Mauerwerk. |
Amsterdam, 2025-07-23
Like someone who lays the foundation of his castle (Frida Vogels) - 1994
Verse "Als wie het fundament voor zijn kasteel", published in the collection "De harde kern 3" ("The hard core 3", part IV [Frida]), and in "Diary 1962-1963" (2007) - September 23rd, 1962, Bologna
Collection: Beyond the Cape
Tribute to: Vogels, Frida
| I tell my story | |
| and I see who relax: my -- | |
| fellow sufferers. | |
| Als ik het vertel | Ich erzähle und |
| zie ik wie zich ontspannen: | sehe, wer sich entspannt: die -- |
| mijn lotgenoten. | Schicksalsgenosse. |
Amsterdam, 2025-06-22
Underland (Alma Mathijsen) - 2024
Novel "Onderland", chapter Sanna
Collection: Truder
Tribute to: Mathijsen, Alma
| I didn't feel any | |
| pain, but now I see some blood -- | |
| on my upper leg. | |
| Ik heb er niets van | Ich hab nichts gespürt, |
| gevoeld, maar zie nu wel bloed -- | aber jetzt sehe ich Blut -- |
| op mijn bovenbeen. | an meinen Beinen. |
Amsterdam, 2025-06-22
Underland (Alma Mathijsen) - 2024
Novel "Onderland", second chapter
Collection: Truder
Tribute to: Mathijsen, Alma
| My body isn't mine | |
| anymore since he took it -- | |
| Not of importance. | |
| Sinds hij mijn lichaam | Er nahm mich, meinen |
| nam is het niet meer van mij -- | Körper gehört mir nicht mehr -- |
| Niet meer van belang. | Er ist unwichtig. |
Amsterdam, 2025-06-22
Underland (Alma Mathijsen) - 2024
Novel "Onderland", chapter John
Collection: Truder
Tribute to: Mathijsen, Alma
| Can you really get | |
| out through the door with the sign -- | |
| Euphemism Garden? | |
| Kun je hier echt weg, | Kommt man hier wirklich |
| door de deur met het bordje -- | raus, durch die Tür mit dem Schild -- |
| Eufemismetuin? | Verbrämungs-Garten? |
Amsterdam, 2025-06-22
Underland (Alma Mathijsen) - 2024
Novel "Onderland", chapter Levi
Collection: Truder
Tribute to: Mathijsen, Alma
| She keeps repeating | |
| her instruction: you must say -- | |
| it's not real. Not real! | |
| Ze instrueert mij | Sie weist mich immer |
| keer op keer: je moet zeggen -- | wieder an: du musst sagen -- |
| dat het niet echt is. | dass es nicht echt ist. |
Amsterdam, 2025-06-22
Underland (Alma Mathijsen) - 2024
Novel "Onderland", chapter Mandy
Collection: Truder
Tribute to: Mathijsen, Alma
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Father was a muselmann, after the war |
Amsterdam, 2025-03-25
Novella "Tralievader" (translation 1994), chapters 'Kamp' (Camp), 'Bos' (Forest), 'Voetbal' (Football), 'Bette'
Muselmann: a gaunt prisoner of a German Nazi concentration camp, starved and exhausted
Collection: Bruises
Tribute to: Friedman, Carl
| I cut in myself, | |
| horrible memories are -- | |
| bleeding from my heart. | |
| Ik snijd in mijzelf, | Ich schneide in mich, |
| laat de herinneringen -- | Erinnerungen bluten -- |
| uit mijn hart bloeden. | aus meinem Herzen. |
Amsterdam, 2025-03-17
A heart of stone (Renate Dorrestein) - 1998
Novel "Een hart van steen", part 2, chapter 'Kester, Ellen and Bas, Thanksgiving, November 28th, 1972'
Collection: Lack
Tribute to: Dorrestein, Renate
| The stone in the shape | |
| of a heart is pink, bled dry -- | |
| it lies on their grave. | |
| De hartvormige | Der herzförmige |
| steen is roze, leeggebloed -- | Stein: rosa, ausgeblutet -- |
| ligt hij op hun graf. | auf ihrem Rastplatz. |
Amsterdam, 2025-03-17
A heart of stone (Renate Dorrestein) - 1998
Novel "Een hart van steen", part 2, chapter 'Kester, Ellen and Bas, Thanksgiving, November 28th, 1972'
Collection: Lack
Tribute to: Dorrestein, Renate
| The hair dryer hot, | |
| that is what kneeling felt like -- | |
| hours in the full sun. | |
| De föhn op zijn heetst, | Der Föhn auf heiß |
| ja, zo voelde het knielen -- | fühlte sich das Knien an -- |
| uren in de zon. | in voller Sonne. |
Amsterdam, 2025-03-16
Higher physics #3 and #10 (Ellen Deckwitz) - 2019
Poem (collection "Hogere natuurkunde"), pages 23 and 52, 57 - Grandmother (1921-2014) in the Japanese internment camp
Collection: Death on Cast
Tribute to: Deckwitz, Ellen
| She doesn't talk about | |
| the old days, she only says: | |
| they are at the door. | |
| Ze vertelt nooit iets | Sie erzählt mir nie |
| over vroeger, zegt alleen: | über früher, sagt nur: sie -- |
| ze staan voor de deur. | stehen vor der Tür. |
Amsterdam, 2025-03-16
Higher physics #5 (Ellen Deckwitz) - 2019
Poem (collection "Hogere natuurkunde"), page 33 - Grandmother (1921-2014)
Collection: Death on Cast
Tribute to: Deckwitz, Ellen
| They will come, that's what | |
| the pantry shows, the food that -- | |
| is slowly spoiling. | |
| Ze zullen komen, | Sie werden kommen, |
| toont de voorraadkast, eten -- | zeigt der Vorrat, das Essen -- |
| dat stilaan bederft. | das langsam verdirbt. |
Amsterdam, 2025-03-16
Higher physics #5 (Ellen Deckwitz) - 2019
Poem (collection "Hogere natuurkunde"), page 33 - Grandmother (1921-2014)
Collection: Death on Cast
Tribute to: Deckwitz, Ellen
| A trauma absorbs | |
| everything, no sound to be -- | |
| let out anymore. | |
| Trauma is alles | Trauma ist alles |
| absorberen, geen geluid -- | absorbieren, gar kein Klang -- |
| valt er te horen. | ist noch zu hören. |
Amsterdam, 2025-03-16
Higher physics #9 (Ellen Deckwitz) - 2019
Poem (collection "Hogere natuurkunde"), pages 45-46 - This absorption is 'Higher Physics'
Collection: Death on Cast
Tribute to: Deckwitz, Ellen
| The fourth silence is | |
| absorption, which is the case -- | |
| in every silence. | |
| De vierde stilte | Die vierte Stille |
| is absorptie, het geval -- | ist Absorption, sie geltet -- |
| bij elke stilte. | für jeder Stille. |
Amsterdam, 2025-03-16
Higher physics #9 (Ellen Deckwitz) - 2019
Poem (collection "Hogere natuurkunde"), page 47 - There is dull silence, wholesome silence, aggressive silence, silence through absorption, and deathly silence
Collection: Death on Cast
Tribute to: Deckwitz, Ellen
| Hiding the old sore. | |
| Sabotage. And hoping -- | |
| for final justice. | |
| Oud zeer verbergen. | Alten Schmerz tarnen. |
| Sabotage. En hopen -- | Sabotage. Und hoffen -- |
| op gerechtigheid. | auf Gerechtigkeit. |
De Koog, 2024-09-27
A night to fly a kite (Renate Dorrestein) - 1987
Novel "Een nacht om te vliegeren"
Collection: Lack
Tribute to: Dorrestein, Renate
| Left behind, I shout | |
| my angry powerlessness -- | |
| far into the depths. | |
| Achtergebleven | Zurückgelassen |
| schreeuw ik mijn machteloosheid -- | schreie ich meine Ohnmacht -- |
| boos de diepte in. | weit in die Tiefe. |
Amsterdam, 2023-10-04
View (Anna Enquist) - 2020
Poem "Uitzicht" (in the Poëziekrant, summer 2020, and in the collection "Berichten van het front", 2020)
Collection: Blankets of snow
Tribute to: Enquist, Anna
| We carry sorrows | |
| and old injuries with us -- | |
| as long as we live. | |
| Beschadigingen | Wir tragen Trauer |
| en verdriet dragen we mee -- | und Verletzungen mit uns -- |
| zolang we leven. | solang wir leben. |
Amsterdam, 2023-07-08
The Good Apprentice (Iris Murdoch) - 1985
Novel, chapter 1, part 5
Collection: Stall
Tribute to: Murdoch, Iris
| A girl in the camp | |
| is forced to sing every night -- | |
| In her heart she cries. | |
| Er is een meisje | Im Lager zwingen |
| in het kamp, dat moet zingen -- | sie ein Mädchen zum Singen -- |
| In haar hart huilt ze. | Im Herzen weint sie. |
Amsterdam, 2022-09-30
Different Trains - After the war (Steve Reich) - 1988
Composition for string quartet and three string quartets on tape, performed on September 30th, 2022 in the Organpark by the Dudok Quartet
Deportations --- Union Pacific Railroad --- Conversation between Virginia (Steve Reich's governess), Lawrence Davis (a servant on the Pullman sleeping cars), and Paul, Rachel and Rachella, who survived the extermination of the Jews (Shoah, catastrophe)
Collection: org ANP ark
Composer: Reich, Steve
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In the glory days of K-1 |
Amsterdam, 2022-08-24
Collection: Bruises
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk
| If you don't forgive | |
| you'll drink poison, hoping that -- | |
| the other suffers. | |
| Als je niet vergeeft | Wenn man nicht vergibt, |
| drink je gif, terwijl je hoopt -- | trinkt man ein Gift, hoffend, dass -- |
| dat de dader lijdt. | der Täter leidet. |
Amsterdam, 2022-02-19
Interview with Mpho Andrea Tutu - 2022
Interview in nrc, February 19th, 2022
Collection: Actively Passive
Tribute to: Tutu, Mpho Andrea
| Torn from the photo, | |
| but still present anyhow -- | |
| with a sock and shoe. | |
| Van de foto af- | Aus dem Foto weg- |
| gescheurd, maar nog aanwezig -- | gerissen, aber noch da -- |
| met een sok en schoen. | mit Socke und Schuh. |
Amsterdam, 2022-01-31
Findling (Vonne van der Meer) - 2019
Novel "Vindeling"
Collection: VacantVoid
Tribute to: Van Der Meer, Vonne
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It started so well - |
Amsterdam, 2022-01-10
Collection: Dearme
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk
| It happened to us, | |
| and we carry it with us -- | |
| A backpack with ice. | |
| Zo is het gegaan, | Es ist uns passiert, |
| we dragen het met ons mee -- | und wir tragen es bei uns -- |
| Een rugzak vol ijs. | Ein Rucksack mit Eis. |
Amsterdam, 2021-09-12
The ice bearers (Anna Enquist) - 2002
Novella "De ijsdragers"
Collection: Actively Passive
Tribute to: Enquist, Anna
| The experience | |
| is still there, always lurking -- | |
| Wanting one more time. | |
| De ervaring blijft, | Die Erfahrung bleibt, |
| ze ligt altijd op de loer -- | liegt immer auf der Lauer -- |
| Ze wil nog een keer. | Sie will noch einmal. |
Amsterdam, 2021-09-10
Collection: Bruises
| Look at me, my wound | |
| is a branch full of life force -- | |
| full of peace blossoms. | |
| Kijk naar mij, mijn wond | Schau: meine Wunde, |
| is een tak vol levenskracht -- | ein Zweig voller Lebenskraft -- |
| vol vredebloesems. | und Friedensblüten. |
Amsterdam, 2021-08-12
Body paint starting from the branch on an operation scar
Collection: Dearme
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk
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Are you my exercise |
Amsterdam, 2020-12-12
Collection: Bruises
Dedicated to: Maria Godschalk
| What has happened then | |
| is now my cell, bare and small -- | |
| smaller every day. | |
| Wat toen gebeurd is, | Was damals geschah, |
| is nu mijn cel, kaal en klein -- | ist jetzt meine Zelle, klein -- |
| elke dag kleiner. | jeden Tag kleiner. |
Amsterdam, 2020-12-10
Vanishing point (Wytske Versteeg) - 2020
Story "Verdwijnpunt"
Collection: Shelter
Tribute to: Versteeg, Wytske
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To find your company |
Amsterdam, 2019-12-05
The gods must have their number (Hubert Lampo) - 1969
Novella "De goden moeten hun getal hebben"
Collection: Greeting from before
Tribute to: Lampo, Hubert
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It must be me |
Amsterdam, 2019-10-01
Wishing to die (Anne Sexton) - 1964
Poem "Wanting to die", read in the film "Anne Sexton at home" (1966) and published in the collection "Live or Die" (1966)
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Collection: Bruises
Tribute to: Sexton, Anne
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He hits me, and she |
Amsterdam, 2019-09-30
Collection: Inflictions
Dedicated to: Siera Mayhew
| I want to forget, | |
| absolutely not forget -- | |
| to forget something. | |
| Ik wil vergeten, | Ich will vergessen |
| en zeker niets vergeten -- | und nicht vergessen, etwas -- |
| toch te vergeten. | doch zu vergessen. |
Amsterdam, 2019-07-05
Grand Hotel Europa (Ilja Leonard Pfeijffer) - 2018
Novel
Collection: Palace of the night
Tribute to: Pfeijffer, Ilja Leonard
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I decided not to lament |
Amsterdam, 2019-02-13
I decided (Minyeshu) - 2008
Song "Wosenku" ("I decided", 2008, Minyeshu Kifle Tedla; album "Dire Dawa", her place of birth in Ethiopia)
Collection: New Ago
Tribute to: Minyeshu
| I throw some papers | |
| on the death notices, like -- | |
| sand on a coffin. | |
| Ik strooi papieren | Ich streue Blätter |
| over de doodsberichten -- | auf dem Todesbericht, wie -- |
| als zand op een kist. | Sand auf einem Sarg. |
Amsterdam, 2019-01-07
An empty house (Marga Minco) - 1966
Autobiography "Een leeg huis"
After the Second World War, the Red Cross informed relatives by letter about the death of close family members in a concentration camp
Collection: Blankets of snow
Tribute to: Minco, Marga
| I remember it, | |
| luckily only vaguely -- | |
| and that's bad enough. | |
| Mijn herinnering | Zum Glück ist meine |
| is gelukkig vaag, en dat -- | Erinnerung ungenau -- |
| is al erg genoeg. | und das ist schon schlimm. |
Amsterdam, 2017-10-20
Collection: Bruises
| Skin full of scratches, | |
| head full of bubble colours -- | |
| I'm out of the day. | |
| Mijn vel vol krassen, | Haut voller Kratzen, |
| mijn hoofd vol luchtbelkleuren -- | Kopf voller Blasenfarben -- |
| Ik glijd uit de dag. | Ich geh aus dem Tag. |
Amsterdam, 2014-12-06
Many times we have cleared the needle (Jotie T'Hooft) - 1976
Poem "Vele malen hebben wij de naald gezuiverd" (collection "Junkieverdriet")
Collection: Moist glow
Tribute to: T'Hooft, Jotie
